it's hot chip!

Wednesday, May 31, 2006
a day out watchin x men

today went out to watch x men movie wit mastura, farhan n rafidah at tampines mall. wohoo! the freakin show is darm nice lah. nvr regreted watchin it. like bloody hell nice lah. those freaks who haven watch this show, muz die3 watch it. comfirm u all enjoy watching it. hahaz.

so i kind turn down my other plans. such as playing badminton wit wahid, vinoodh, mustaqim n rasyidin at the hougang sport complex. like wat the hell. i m the onli gal there, if i went to go. but than i kinda of miss my chances to be close wit this guy. argh! hate it man. nvr mind. there will always be other ways, somehow, i hope.

so kindna of bored so i did this lah.

of course we took some photos to entertain ourselves while waiting for fida who was late for 1 hr plus to meet us n there is ein who so call wan to meet mas after we finish watchin the movie.

n so we set off to play pool at pasir ris, downtown east. u knw me, i just watch n laugh how they play. freakin funny coz fida keep cheatin. hua3. befor heading home, had dinner. they so cal have no money to buy drinks since they order food already so i treat them. they faces will like, so worry. since i was the one who nvr order any food expect drink. they think i got no money to buy food i guess. haha. i was not hungry back then. i guess thats wat worried them. n they like keep offering me to eat their food. haiz, this peeps just dnt unstd.

in the bus, on the way hm. waliao! that idiot fahan n fida cannot stop fightin siak. they like cat n dog. keep knocking on the chair. since i was siting infront of them. irritating u knw. hmmps. they togther make a good wife n husband bah. might as well get marry now. haha.

2:58 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006
shoppin

went out wit parents to hav dinner. suppose to buy a water heater. but i ended buying two necklaces. haha.

i m in love wit greeny stuffs.

kinda of like the patten so i bought it. n wat more its black, hahaz.

2:21 PM

Saturday, May 27, 2006
my confessions.

Mark your confessions:

[x] I'm afraid of silence.
[x] I Talk A LOT when I getreally nervous.
[ ]I am really ticklish.
[x] I'm afraid of the dark.
[x] I'm afraid of facing my back to open door sat night.
[x] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed
[ ] i am afraid of gay or lesbian people.
[x] I believe in true love.
[x] I've run away from home
[ ] I listen to political music
[ ] I collect comic books
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[x] I've stayed out all night.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[x] I dont kill bugs
[ ] I curse.
[ ] I have an "x" in my screen name.
[x]I've slipped and fell in public.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[x] I want a better job
[x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours
[ ] I love Dr. Phil.
[x] I like multiple people
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I have a lot of scars
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[ ] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Thought of suicide before.
[ ] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Had a menage a trois.
[ ] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Have kissed someone really strange.
[ ] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a diff. sex.
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested.
[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at Liberace.
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[ ] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car.
[ ] been to Japan.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't havethem back.
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[x ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[ ] been to New York
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Been on a Plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar or club
[x] Eaten sushi.
[ ] Been snowboarding.
[x] Continued to care for someone sooo mucheven though you know you can't have them
[x] taken a picture just for the sole purpose ofputting it on friendster.
[ ] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyesclosed.
[ ] been at a party and instead of giving outyour phone number you give them your friendstname and say look me up
[x] liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ ] Hate the world.
[x] Love someone who doesnt realize it
[ ] have your cell phone permanently attachedto your hand/hip
[x] cried over a guy/girl you didnt even go outwith.

11:32 AM

his galfren?

one intresting happen today. surprisingly i met mrs danapal wen i was at the canteen talking wit hui qi n venessa. talking happily wit them, n than come by mrs danapal. she was talking to me. i thought she was to says bad thing abt me, especially my hair color.

sunddenly she ask me if i knw saiful. i said yes, my mly classmates. she ask me to get him to c her lah. i said ohh k. n than she pop up this q. y r u so anxious to c him? ur boifren huh? i like wat the hell. my fren. n no lol. wen cikgu class n cal him. so he was off to met her. since qi was still there, she said wen i walk away, mrs danapal still ask them if i m really his galfren. amalak. he n me. like no chemistry lol. n can nvr be lah. we two different world. n dont even knw each other. haiz. teachers now a days.

today whole skool clean the classroom. yup is fun orite.kinda of end early after givin out result slip n papers. mrs guna come, all the rubbish cip thingy. wen to e back of the staff room to get mly papers stuff. woliao. many n many papers. can die man. but still ned to go coz mon gt exam. borrow cikgu kamus liao. safe. she is weird most of the time. mood swing i guess. early in the morning she did some scolding, after skool like one kid. hiaz.

gtg. wan to eat n sleep n do hmwk.

4:37 AM

Friday, May 26, 2006
let the rain fall down n wash away all my stressness

i hav a crush on my bro fren. aiyoh. cant help it. beem seeing him most of the time lately. hahaz. n i so not seeing ras already. for the whole week. sobsob.

hmm. tmr skool. getting report slip. i goin to c lots of failing subjects. wat the hell.

mon o mly exam! freakin shit i m. wed till dnt knw wen, got skool. for one weeks. i m so hateing it. art is like freaking long, abt 5 to 6 hrs for 2 days. how the hell can i survive? each subjects last for 1.5 hrs. ohh man.

let the rain fall down n wash away all my stressness.

2:25 PM

i am 38% grown up

[x] I actually act my age-older (when required)
[x] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] I do my own laundry
[x] I can cook for myself
[ ] I do my chores after being told once
Total - 4

[ ]I clean the house for no reason
[ ] I always do my homework/work
[ ] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations
[ ] I think politics are exciting!
[ ] My parents and grand-parents have betterthings to say than my peers
Total - 0

[ ] I show up for school/work everyday unless I'msick..really sick
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[ ] I've never gotten a ticket...well unless youcant drive, then no point in checking this one
[ ] I watch talk shows and point out theincredibility of it all
[ ] I know what incredibility means with out looking it up
Total - 1

[ ] I drink black coffee
[x] I know how to run the dish washer..or do the dishes
[ ] I don't get caught when I do bad things..or Ijust don't do bad things
[x] I can count in more than one language
Total - 2

[x] When I say I'm going to do something, I do it
[ ] I mow the lawn
[ ] I wash my car...or I would if I had one
[ ] I can be witty and make adults laugh..with outbeing stupid
[ ] I remember to water my plants
Total - 1

[x] I study when I have to
[ ] I pay attention at school/work
[ ] I remember to feed my pets
[x] I'm generally organized
[x] I know the meaning of cruel punishment fromexperience
otal - 3

[x] I can spell experience without looking at theline above
[x] I clean up my own messes
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee
[ ] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need
[ ] I understand jokes the first time they are said
Total - 2

[ ] I listen to my parents/elders
[x] I understand the fact that the world always screws someone over
[x] I enjoy bathing...or showering
[ ] I can type fast, because I type every day
[ ] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something like that
Total - 2

[ ] I can watch politics and laugh because I understand what is going on
[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[x] I can look at someone hot and not think of sex
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 andhave a job
Total - 2

[x] I can read a book and actually finish it
[x] People have said that I act older than I am
[ ] I can be sent on an errand and not get side tracked
Total - 2
Now.. add up all of your x's and multiply by 2!
"I am 38% grown-up"
cOOL. i still kidies.

9:29 AM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006
neo pics

wohoo. got the neo prints. thankies to liyana, as she help me to scan it. =)

e neo print we took after watching the poseidon movie.

wen out wit lia. to accompany her take this tution form near heartland mall. than walk2 n took neo print. i mus say, we spent a long long time editin the pics. abt an hour. hua3.

1:33 PM

Tuesday, May 23, 2006
fren stuffy

ohh well, i got to so this. nadia tag my board.

Name 11 ppl you can think of right off your head. Then do the qns below. After that tag at least 5 ppl to do the same thing.

1. Hafizah
2. Mastura
3. Farhan
4. Zarifah
5. Mustaqim
6. Lyna
7. Rasyidin
8. Liyana
9. Waheedah
10. Fitria
11. Wahid

1.How did you meet 10??
- Fitria, skool. argh, in sec 3. my classmates till now.

2. What would you do if you hadnt met 1??
- My life would be bored. without adik hafizah, there is no entertainment for me. without her no bunkum n nitwits stuffy.

3. What would you do if 11 and 9 dated??
- wOhoo. wahid n waheedah. hid n idah. my job is done. there are so perfect couples. i say my congrats to them.

4. Did you ever like 7??
- rasyidin, like who dont. i admit, i do like him. haha. he is funny, cute. kinda of outgoin. =)

5. Would 5 and 6 make a good couple??
- wohoO. other job is done. mustaqim n lyna. other perfect couples. hEHe. love is in the air. =)

6. Describe 3
- farhan? my ex, my fren, my classmates. weird in sm way. crazy in n out. nuts most of the time. =P

7. Do you think 8 is attractive??
- hmm, liyana. like yah! she has nice skin! so fair n smooth. body gt shape some more.

8. Tell me something about 2.
- without mastura aka rynn, ohh man, i wont be here havin fun, laughther n smilies. i would go nuts if wit her. we do crazy stuff. we share the same taste, abt guys. hmm. not forgotin butts. hua3.

9. Do you know of any of 4's family??
- zarifah. i knw she got a dad working as a teacher. mummy as a librarian. two sister. one is a teacher n other one in ploy. if not wrong lah.

10. What's 5 favourite??
- Mustaqim? like hell i have no idea. he is a guy rite, hmm. loves soccer n music i guess. shd be YES.

11. What would you do if 3 confess he/she likes you??
- huh? farhan? he wont ever dare to ask again. i broke off wit him 3 times. like he dare to ask again. aniway, he so call have this gal. no idea who. =?

12. What language does 6 speak?
- lyna speak english, malay n full of craps n nonsense talks. she in love wit e word "freak".

13. Who is 9 going out with??
- waheedah. hmm, single for sure. just waiting for this guys. he is stupid for sure. ask her.

14. How old is 8 now??
- liyana, 15 years old this year.

15. When was the last time you talked to 1??
- fizah, msn if not wrong when her bro is away. midnite, if i m bored, sms would be the ans.

16. What is 2's favourite band/singer??
- arh, mastura listen to malay songs most of the time. so i think peter pan.

17. Would you ever date 7??
- rasyidin? unless he pop up the question, why not! how cool. how i wish he would be mine. keep on day dreaming. =>

18. Would you ever date 11??
- wahid, hell no! how could i be so bad to steal my fren dream guy. no way.no way. no way.

19. Have you seen 2 naked??
- mastura, shd be half naked. hua3. at hm. when she usually change her clothes. =)

DONE..

ppl who i wish them to do.
Liyana, Zarifah, Mastura, Hafizah n Kak Ain.. =)

12:55 PM

freakin marks for mid year

boOoO.

today post is all abt the freaking marks i got for my mid year result. i m so loving it. hua3.

Eng= 29/60 (paper 1) n 12.5/50 (paper 2)
Total= 37.7%
Math= 41/80 (paper 1) n 61/100 (paper 2)
Total= 57.2%
Malay= 32/70 (paper 2) n 29/70 (paper 2)
Total= 43%
Com Sci= 34.5/65 (chem) n 17/65 (phy) n 27/40 (mcq)
Total= 46.1%
Com Hum= 21/50 (ss) n 20/50 (geo)
Total= 41%
Art= ?

how cool. i m slacking! i pass one subject n fail the rest. i m died.
O mt is on the way. freak.

11:32 AM

Saturday, May 20, 2006
adobe photoshop, getting a hang of it

i stay up all nite, till now just to do this.

my so call first attempt. i think i did well. despite the others i do which is not nice. so i think not bad argh. than i did other one since i m bored. came out like this.

wohoo. i think i hav improved. took a long time too get use of adobe photoshop. but still there are many things i still need to explore. so i think i goin to ask ppl helps.

6:53 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006
a day out wit freaks

exam over rite. so the mendaki peeps plan to go out so we did. we met at ang mo kio mrt station at 2pm. waited n waited. i was the first one to reach there. follow by lyna. than waheedah, 20 mins late. n finall 40 mins later, fitria come. we drop at somerset. walk to cathay. n book ticket n pop corn, drinks.

as u can c, we watch poseidon. a veri nice show. way more better than the stranger call. so watch than show. end at 5 plus. so we walk to herren. n took neo print.

i took this pic for entertainment. they are worst than me. they took a long time than me to be all neat n nice to get ready. gals. cant help it to be all beautiful. hahaz.

nice pose lyna. =) (n u r goin to say "u freak" rite, lyna. i read ur mind. hua3)

wohoo. 6 sec to go. i knw i m lame. i was full of crazy today.

n than come up this pic. lyna scan one. wondering y one pic rite. aiyah, the rest scan not clear. so i goin ask my fren to help me. ohh wait. we saw afifah that day wit her cine frens. while cutting the neo print, i took out a pen. i suggested to write something in this book. so call ppl paste their neo print n let others c. so we did something stupid. fifi wrote 4 nitwit in this green paper. n i continue to scribble some names. not our name but guys names. no idea why i wrote that. for entertainment purpose. haha. since there was four gals so i wrote four guys names. guess who? if u are desperated to knw who. go n check it out. it is a green paper, black ink, n has a date 18/6. hua3. =)

than we ended up walking to plaza sing. coz we wanted to go hm by bus. since it was early, we walk ard ps. yeah. again we did something stupid. my idea again to walk in spotlight. i think so lah, wat ever the shop is cal.we explore. i was all crazy, so i did this.

i try out the bunny ears. than fifi give me this star wand.wohoo. i m a bunny fairy. yeah. i m so cute. one freak that is. walk ard. trying out stuff. n i saw flowers. so ending up wit this pic.

we r getting marry. purple flower for lyna. green flower for norma. therefor i pronounce lyna u as mrs u n norma mrs a. wohoo. we r married to them. how happi. =P

lastly we did our names. haha. i m insane to create new idea for fun. haha. no body wan to go hm yet. so took bus n drop at ang mo kio. wen to 7 11, buy food n water n slack near at bhavani house.

we r bunch of slacko. hua3. we talk abt guy especially. haha. i was the one who started the topic. i hav no idea wat to ask. so i kpo abit lol. hmm, stuff like frens, we r so bad talking bad stuff abt them. haha. kk, the fun started wen we prank someone. hua3. poor thingy to who u r. had fun chatting wit u. we will disturb u again.

i had fun throughout e day. n i knw everyone did. hehe. =>

fin.

11:51 PM

exam over,

well. i think i goin to fail most of my exam. yup. did not study well enough for my exam. was slacking. yesh i admited i was slacking throughout the whole weeks of exam. i study one day befor.

so mostly. i goin to have bad result for chem, i totally forgot wat i learn when i start doin e paper. geo, hav no time to finish it. wasted alot. art, did not even complete half of it n i had no water for paintin. how cool n stupid is that. math paper 1. like freaking hard. waliao, freaking shit lah. all q like no c befor. phy, hav no idea wat the most of the q asking. had more blanks than chem. i did not rmb formules. shit.

so yah. goin to hav veri bad result. plus, i m goin to die. coz. mly o paper is in two weeks time. i m dead meat.

2:06 PM

mummys day

mummy's day was like so over rite. but who cares. i m free aniway to blog.

wen grandma house to celebrate mothers day togther wit aunt family, my familt n amma. aunts idea. fun3. have dinner. chicken rice, satays, mutabak n so on. everyone was freaking full. yet there was desserts. ohh no. ohh yes.

we had this two lovely cakes. left cake bought by me. right cake bought by akak. both chocolates. yummy. but there was raisin for both cakes. so not us to eat that. but to bad. must eat it. taste good despite there was raisin. yucks.

that me n akak. i wonder y i nvr smile that time. i thought i did. lOl.

my ama. cutting cake. wohoo. mother day was a surprise for her. but that my other aunt family cant make it lah. if not, we have the complete set of families n cousins. yeah.=)

the mummys of the day. happi mummy's day. my amma, my mother n my aunt.

12:45 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006
bmc suck

bloody hell bmc. just approve lah. we nvr ask anything wat. just make the tution start early also cannt. u think we got so much time izzit. hell no k. we got exam tmr, like everyone else.n students are suppose to study for their exam. n not wasting their time waiting for mendaki to start. u freak. we r still goin for the tution wat. not as if we absentin ourself frm ur stupid class. hate u arhg. bloody hell muz go back skool later.
n u now wat. some intended not to come also. becoz the class start late n dont blame we all. coz we hav work to do.
i so hating bmc n not my tution teacher. coz bmc jus suck. n way no good.

wen back to skool. lyna n i was there. onli two loyal students make it. haha.
we study probability n vectors. k. i was freaking blur wat chear thought me abt vectors. coz i wat he teach my chear nvr teach. so i was one blur sotong there. but lyna n chear come to help me out. haha.take turn to write ans at the block.
n yah. chear was nice to us to bring some food. agar2 n kuih. oh k oh k lah. at least he is veri kind to bring food for us. therefore i ate some. lyna bad, eat abit onli. haha.

4:43 AM

Monday, May 15, 2006
'My life is 44% perfect'.

[x] You know someone that cares about you.
[ ] You have aboyfriend/girlfriend/fiance/husband/wife
[x]You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You get good grades.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in yourbackyard.
[x] You live in a house.
T O T A L: 7

[x] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once aweek.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you wantto.
[ ] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.
T O T A L: 5

[x] You have over 100 friends on friendster.
[x] You have pictures on friendster.
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[ ] You look foward to go to school/work.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[ ] You do something after school/work.
[x] You shower daily.
T O T A L: 3

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[x] You're healthy.
[ ] You've never had a cavity.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade inyour life.
[x] You have friends.
[ ] You have so many inside jokes withfriends.
[x] You know your parents care and love you.
T O T A L: 4

[ ] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about sooo many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[x] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[ ]You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You don't have any enemies.
[ ] You are happy you're living.
T O T A L: 5

Now count up the number and multiplyby 2.
'My life is 44% perfect."
boohoo. aint that perfect after all.

2:02 AM

Saturday, May 13, 2006
beep. beep. beep

she should have taken a long walk today, to no where, but she didnt. she regreted. she need time n peace to clear her mind in n out. a long walk wit fresh air to breath in, looking at the clear blue shy, watching birds flying up high, transportation passing by every now n then. n than boom. she knock down. beep. beep. beep.

no one could ever distrub her animore.

1:50 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006
my wish for now.

if i could onli slap her. beat her. n make her cry all day long and make her go crazy n over reacted abt it. that would be the best thing i wanted in my life.

stop hauntin her. she is innocent already. let her rest in peace.

3:21 AM

Monday, May 08, 2006
ainthappeing

Aint jealously the best thingy ever. It reflects who you are for one thing for sure.The fact is she is freaking jealous. Everything around her make her feel that she is all alone. She is nth compared to them. Freak she is all alone, by herself. Wit no one to lean on. A shoulder to cry on. Even with friends. She usually felt left out.

She wonder why she is not smart. She not that call stupid. But why the hell did she do all those stuffs. It just makes her feel so stupid. All those nonsense stuffs she did had no use and no effect, she making herself look nitwit. She is bloody hell one freaking bunkum person. No wonder she was supposed to be in normal tec n stay where she was and get out of here like her frens. Enjoying life wit laughter,joy n happines wit them than what she had now. Life has never been fair to her when she wan thing to happen normally.

She tried so hard to put on a smile on her face. Even though she aint happy wit her surroundings most of the time. She want her past back badly and follow the path that she wan. But everyone around her give high expections on her to do things differently. She aint no fast learner but a slow one. Take months to do learn something and to expect things. She regreted wat she had done but nothing could change that. Even though there a way, she wont be daring enough to do so. She always been the shy one, afraid to do things that she nvr did befor. She had always lack of courage and self control. She cry helplessly in her room. She pray that things will be fine the next morning but that aint no goin to happen. Everyday there will always be something that goes wrong.

She is freaking stress about school, studies and friends. She know she cant make it though. No matter how hard she try to understand, there will always be a doubt on what she suppose to understand. She tried to learn but things get out of hand. She tried to applied wat she learn but she just cant do it. She give up things easily n that is why she need ppl ard her to motivate her to keep on goin but that wat she lacks of.

She is under pressure who are her frens are. Usually she dont understand wat was goin ard her n wit her frens. There would always be a missing info which she do not knw. It has always been a sercetive manner. She had this feelings that there is something which her friends are hidding from her. She had to find out herself just in order to keep updated on what was goin on ard her. She wondered why her frens did that? Is it because she was nobody to them or they afraid that it might her feelings or they jus dont even bother? On the hand, without them telling what goins n keeping away stuffs which she did not knows, it hurts her more than being unwanted one. Is this call friends? Hidding aways stuff n not to be straight foward abt it? She wont give her frens her attitude if they had nvr started giving their attitude to her. When she starting giving them a different behaviour of herself that means there is something wrong. Her mind is wondering about stuffs that she dont wan to knw or hear abt and soon she will over reacted abt the stuffs. She will find it hard to forget and expected it.

Unwanted life that wat she called. She had no choice to expect the reality. She cant goin on runing away from truth and her surrounding. Sooner or later, she wont be the same animore like her truthself. All her surrounding has make her wat she is now. She cant take it animore but theres nothing she could do. The onli thing she could do is to be silence at all time.

Imperfect n worthless thats what she would always feel inside. On the outside freaky n weird thats what ppl said.

12:58 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006
adam khoo workshop. =)

I must say the adam khoo workshop, ' i am gifted so are u' was the most meaningful, extraordinary and motivating workshop I had attended so far in my whole secondary school life. I had never regretted coming and paying for this course. In a matter in fact, I never absent myself from the workshop. It would be a total waste if I had missed one whole day of this workshop.

It was a full three-day workshop, from 8am to 8pm. Usually it would end later than 8 pm. But nobody seriously felt that we should go home, some suggested to overnight in school because it was just to fun and enjoyful for us to end the day.

The first day of the workshop we met, Mr Rumesh and Mr Melvin the trainers and Eugine the sound assistant. The ava room was the place we would be having our lessons, talks and games and there would be song playing all day long for us to keep awake.
We had much laughter as jokes were told every now and then and sometime it will make us cry, as we cant take it any more.

That day, I learned so many things. Such as one should participate 100% fully in any thing they do. There is no failure, only learning experience. For things to change, I must change myself. I must not say I will try but I should say I must try. One should have high self-esteem and must not stop until one success.

Besides remembering all this quotes, I had learned to do mind map by using different colors and pictures for certain subject. Therefore it would be easier for me to understand. I also learned how to memorizes things by using pictures and rhythms and most important of all my creativity. The weirder the thing is the easier for me to remember. But too bad, I can’t really get hold on how to do it properly. I need to work hard on it.

The second day was a tearful day for us. We finally realize what life would be if our family would not here with us. Everyone cried in the room as Mr Rusmeh was telling stories about our family if one of them would leave us. Everyone felt that we were in the wrongs because no body felt that a family was important until now. Since than I realize that I did not show much love to my parents. To change that, every now and than, I had interacted more with my parents and my siblings, I had show more care and concern to them and I had learned to love my family as much as I love myself.

The last day of the workshop was the day we plan about our life on what and which course we would take and the life we want when we are old. I did my planning and I will work hard to reach for it. That night was a tearful night too, because it was the day when parents came and students came up faced in front off the other students to show how much they love their parents. It touched my heart when I listened to everyone speech about his or her parents. The atmosphere was filled with loves and kisses everywhere. My parents did not come because they were busy. I never blame them for not coming because they have to work to support the family.

It also marks the end of this workshop. Even though it was a hilarious and tearful three-day workshop, no body wanted it to end so fast. We wanted more and we cant wait for the booster camp even though it only one day. We love them so much. I want to thank you for the motivations you guys had given to us. It has really made a different for us. Thank you. You guys are the best. I miss you.

Too my classmates who did not attend this workshop you are in a great loss. You had made a decision for not turning up as a result they had hurt our form teacher feelings. Therefore you arent good students.

snap shots..

having dinner.

the last day. so took photo wit them.

funny faces.

i knw it been mths this thing had been over. i kind of had no time to write. in the end i wrote this for my english journal. so kinda of cut n copy. hua3.

2:31 PM

Saturday, May 06, 2006
bored

sian. so bored. no mood to study anything. n i m slacking. haiz.
i m so behind time. i aint goin to pass anything i guess.
unless someone motivate me yah. which i can think can wait long2.

will be using this phone for a while. till my cousin finish using my phone for snapshot. yup.

i miss my phone. haiz.

can someone just entertain me.

thats my bro spec.

so i try it on. does it look good on me? coz i plan of making this type of spec. haha. =)

11:02 AM

38 percent girly

[ ]my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[ ]during the summer pretty much the only shoes iwear are flip flops
[ ]my favorite toy as a child were barbies[ ]my favorite color is purple
[ ]i did Gymnastics
[x]i love skirts
[ ]hollister is my favorite place to shop
[ ]tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x]i love chocolate
[ ]i've never had a real job
TOTAL:2

[ ]my hair is straightened
[x]i have at least 8 friendster pictures
[x]i usually go shopping once a week
[x]i love to hang out with friends
[ ]i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[ ]i've gone to a tanning salon
[ ]ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ ]i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ]i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ]i change my icon weekly
TOTAL:3

[ ]i wear a shower cap
[ ]I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[x]my cell phone might as well become a part ofme
[ ]i wear mascara everyday
[x]i've been or am on a diet
[ ]bathing suits are adorable
[ ]i dont know the difference between a sheep anda goat.
[ ]big sunglasses are hott
[ ]i have gotten my nails done
[ ]i own over 10 purses
TOTAL:2

[x]MTV is one of my favorite channels
[ ]all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[ ]i love to have other girls do my hair
[x]i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[ ]i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[x]carnivals are so fun!!
[ ]summer is THE best season
[ ]my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[x]im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[x]pianists are so hot.
TOTAL:5

[x]u write me a poem and tell me im beautifuland im all yours
[x]i am self-conscious.
[x]i cry often
[ ]my car smells like vanilla
[ ]my dishes get washed more then once a week
[x]i dont do sports
[x]i HATE to run
[ ]i squeal when im surprised or angry
[ ]i eat dried fruit as a snack
[x]i love romance novels
TOTAL:6

[ ]Drew Barrymore is so cute
[x]i dance a lot
[x]i usually spend over an hour to get ready toleave my house
[ ]i only have like 5 billion hair products
[x]i love to get dressed up.
[x]every part of my outfit needs to match
[ ]i talk on the phone at least once a day to myfriends
[x] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[x]price on clothes hardly matters
[ ]i apply lip gloss 50 times a day
TOTAL:6

[x]i wish i were a model
[ ]i wish i could meet Paris Hilton to slap her
[x]i have been something that was slutty onhalloween
[ ]i own Uggs
[ ]Hip Hop is the best music
[ ]i pop my collar
[ ]i like to be the center of attention
[ ]guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ ]horses are beautiful
[x]i'd rather not pay attention in school
TOTAL:3

[ ]cats are adorable
[ ]i write my own music/song/lyric
[x]i would love to visit Hawaii
[x]Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ]white is better then black
[ ]i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[ ]my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[ ] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[ ]i love to read gossip magazines
[ ]i love to gossip
TOTAL:2

[ ]I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[ ]i love Celine dion
[ ]My bubble baths are 2 hr long
[ ]my wedding only needs a groom because it'salready planned
[ ]my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other only.
[x]i like kids
[x]diet drinks are the best
[ ]im all about being vegetarian
[ ]i refuse to eat at McDonald's
[x]i check my friendster everyday.
TOTAL:3

[ ]i LOVE life!
[ ]i have a lot of jewlery!
[ ]claires has cheap jewlery
[ ]my screen names have x's in them -
[ ]either one of my friendster profile has/had<3 in them
[x]i would never want to be the opposite sex
[x]it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[x]i have more than 3 pillows on my bed
[x]i have a stuffed toy sleeping beside me
[x] i love tidy and clean places
TOTAL:5

[38] PERCENT GIRLY.

i not that girly bah. just an average gal.

6:06 AM

Friday, May 05, 2006
goodbye aaraon

i m so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad.
he is leaving us today.
i cry on the way home.
i acted strong not to cry in class.

took class photo wit the artists.
took group photo wit him.

we had fun, laughter, joy n smilies together.

u r the kindest, quitest n cutest art teacher.

it breaks our heart to c u leaving.

u have been wit us for onli 4 lesson.
why muz it be such a short one?
why can it be a longer one?
we dnt wan u to leave.

we still need ur guidance wit our canvas.
jon hav problems wit the staircase.
jin have problems wit the hand.
wei have problems wit the windows.
and i have problems wit my lady.
we need ur help on how to color all this things.
do come back for one last time.

we will miss u, chear.
goodbye aaron.

8:02 AM

Thursday, May 04, 2006
mendaki.

boo. gt eng mendaki class today. did oral. n coversation. so talk nonsense stuff. was kinda of boring so everyone took photos. haha.

he bloody hell dnt care even though we using hp in class. haha.

lyna was listenin to wat chear say. act onli. few mins later she join me to take pics. hua3. yeah. me. playing wit my hp. u c that was wat i told u early. she also join me to take pic.
she was listenin. n than...
she was too stress. becoz the chear was giving as lame n stupid jokes. haha.
n me too. became nuts as well.

ohh well, fifi nvr come. she said she will came.ending up no. so we all eat this cake. not nice lol.

n we bought this tiger bag for her. shall give her tmr.

i think i like my artist chear. haha. he is cute lol. tmr is his last day to help us for o. ohh no!

n yah, my bro fren. not bad lol. kinda of weird in sense. but cute. haha. he is in ngee ann ploy lol.

2:08 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006
wonderin

i wonder y m i obsess abt him. he is not mine. n i not his. n we r fren n nth more.

like bloody hell lol. I M FREAKIN JEALOUS if i c him wit other gals. like wat the fuck shd i care rite. but i jus cant stand it lah. i m NO different like the others gal. why the hell u treat me different, i also dnt knw. WHY?

freak, we r frens like the others. but u acted extra kind, frendly, outgoin to them than me. u idiot! act like one stranger gt lah. n everytime wen i c u freakin kind to them, i m the one who givin bad attitude to everyone ard me. i hate that feelin n bloody hell how i wish i nvr saw u.

5:49 PM