at last i went out. haha. go out wit family have dinner n make my bro spec.
waliao. my bro spec nice lol! hate him siak. u wait. end of this year i change spec. hua3. still long way to go.

woh. i met some peeps. firstly, liyana n her bro n her mum. in the bus n outside the spec shop. not wrong do her bro bus card n buy the world cup bag lah. secondly i met mas, e-in n ama. they go out nvr ask me along, so bad. thirdly god sis fiza n her fren. suprisingly she wore short skirt. no wonder guys r after her. haha. act brave gurl. thought meet no one. coz cp mah. nowdays peeps dnt go cp liao, its to common lah.

had dinner as usual. had this.

oats prawns.

slice sweet n sour chicken. hot plate black pepper beef.

hot plate beancurb.mix vege.

wonderin y i always took food pics? the reason is my mum ask me too. haha.

i wonder what u doin late nite?

2:58 PM


i dont ever think that he ever hated me. i was the one who started to him at first becoz of the stupid n lame reason.

i m sorry. frens?





EMOTION SURVEY

1. what do you do when you're mad?
- keep quiet in front of them. act innocent. but at hm. i scream like hell n blog bad thing at abt them.

2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
- i will say all the bad stuff they did to me befor n walk away. if can slap they face.

3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- yes.

4. ever physically hurt someone when you weremad?
- yah. beat that person to release pain.

5. do you curse when you're mad?
- yes.

*Crying Section*
1. last time you cried your heart out ?
-knowing that he got some one. wah heartbroken.

2. ever cried yourself to sleep?
- yes.

3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
- yes. we hug each other and cried.

4. do you cry when you get an injury?
- nope.

5. do certain songs make you cry?
- yes.

*Pain Section*
1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebodyelse?
- arh. nvr talk for days/weeks/mths/ years. think so lah.

2. how depressed can you get?
- very depress. i would cry whether i m alone n start thinking the worst thing could ever happen.

*Happy Section*
1. how much do u smile?
- i smile and laugh most of the time. however some were fakes.

2. what can make you happy?
- loud music. the 3 so cal sexy n hots guy who usually disturb me n my accompany of frens who is also weird as them, haha.

3. do you wish you were happier?
- yes. i aint no happy this few days.

4. what about being with your friends, does thatmake u happy?
- sometime it does, sometime it dont. sometime jealously occurs, sometime funny attitude came abt. both positive n negative.

*Love Section*
.1. have you ever loved someone so much, thatyou'd die for them?
- nope.. that will be CRAZY for now!

2. did you ever love a person, and tell him/her that you love him/her?
- once. but he nvr care i guess. that so much courage juz to say that.

3.have you loved someone so much, it made you cry?
- yes.

4.has anyone besides your friends and family eversaid 'i love you' to you?
- nope. so sad.

*Hate Section*
1.~ wat's the question?
o.o?

2. have you ever hated any one that broke yourheart?
- shd be yes! i hated myself too, coz im the one who broken his heart. haiz.

3. do you hate Bush?-
huh. why must i.

*Self-Esteem Section*
1. is your self-esteem extremely low?
-yah in some events when if comes to love. usually if i were hyper active. my self esteem is high. haha.

2.do you believe in yourself?
-sometimes. i believe i can. no i must believe in myself. but it nvr happen.

3. what do you say when people say they think you are good looking/pretty?
- i will say they're joking or eyes blind.

4. are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?
- yah. i aint no pretty, smart. n the opposite of that.

5. ever wanted to kill yourself cuz you thought you weren't good enough?
-no, i not that stupid n this is wat allah give to me.

6. are you happy with who you are?
- no. life is more better that wat i havin now.
2:36 PM


i feel more stress if i were wit them. dnt knw why. but there will be this little devil crawing inside of me and giving me bad behaviour. n than i give this one stupid attitude to them. i nt kidding man, freak lol.

if wit others, i feel more energetic n lively, no stress. more to myself. more to things i like to do. screamin n laughin all the way for stupid stuff. be an idiot for the day. act daring.

but wit them. alamak. silents in progess. why huh? i felt weird. n so cal extra. n i hate smthing abt them. dnt knw wat lah. n dont ask me wat.







wohoo. i bought my bag today! converse, brasil.

thanks to lia n vin. i think i haven bought this bag yet. haha. e keychain cute leh. hehe. =]

this are my jersey pic n class tshirt pic.

yup 23 is my bdae date. supposingly it is LIANA. but frens wan to make it some thing different. every "i" letter change to "y" lol.

font .

back.

that is my drawing. haha. nice.

everione in my class. cuties.

this is wat my classmates describe me as "FEMININE". haha. i add up the word nit wit. hehe. it mean stupid. so it is call feminine stupid. nah feminine nit wit sound even more nicer. =)

7:49 AM


i receiv this sms by my fren joey.

IF U COULD STEAL 1 THING FROM ME, wad would it be? a reply is a must! send this to all ur frens n u'll be amazed at the replies. but must reply to ME first! =)

n yah, i forward it to my fren. n this is wat my fren said.


fadilah, my body! wah. i gt nice figure meh? haha. thank u arhg. can become future model.

lyna, my creativity. my drawing ohh k onli wat. nice wen there is enough time for me to draw. may take the whole day k. her drawing also not bad.

bhavani, my ability to draw. haha. m i artist? lalala.

wahid, my math teacher mrs izal. she is married! n she to old for u, freak!

liyana, e way i control my temper. hehe, smtime i jus cant control my temper. i sure give this attitude to my fren. but i nvr shout at them. like u. hua3, try harder liana.

kak ain, my ability at solving maths n my sweetness. i m so shy, my sweetness! yeah2. i m a sweet gal. lalala. my math? hmm. she is taking accounts n it is much more toughter than wat i m taking. haha.

aik fiza, my smile. let say, she think my smile is like one nanny. alamak!

that was the ppl who bother to reply my sms, some ppl were LAZY for sure! n i hate ppl who nvr reply sms. freaks.



today no it education class, when to this skool for course. so boring but meet my fren skool fren.

he came. didt wan to c his face. but peeps told me he was lookin at me in the bus n at hall. he wanted to say hi. but i had this attitude towards him. so nvr had a chances to talk. i m sorry. i m bad. stay healthy, u r sick. so let ur galfren take care of u.

in the bus i was listening to mus mp3 coz ras took my mp3 lol. surprising that he has this islamic song n also female artist song. he guy mah, so i thought. he kinda of like this rock music lah. but no. he veri e agama person haha. n his mp3 was broken coz there was cracks. hehe. n he dnt update his mp3 that often coz lots of old song. haha. to many comments.



i had also given my bad attitude to my fren coz, i m veri jealous!
2:33 PM


may i bless wit someone new.
n may that person find other love.



last but not least. i m sorry for making u guys fight just now. i dont mend it to happen like that. sorry. n yah i think i learn smth. i must shut up my mouth. i m too straight foward.



i wonder, y do me miss our exs even though the feeling of love isnt there? is that cal love or? n y do we make our love ones jeaous including them who make us jealous too? n y everytime couples fight, first time in mind is break? hmm, i wonder y?


i gt my class tee n jersey today. haha. nice.
2:31 PM


i had fun after i step out of mly class. not that i hate the subject. but just that i started laughtin after i end skool, which after mly. fifi lah, make us laugh like hell, dnt knw becoz of wat. than continu wit lyna n idah. freak lol, this ppl. n not forgeting this freak guys who said hi to me. hahaha.

we had non stop laughing until we sited down togther wit this bunch of guys.yup, norma did it again. thick skin. do i always hav to be the one who brave enough to do smth wit ush, sum n dih. like wat fuck. there wasnt any table left so we kinda of sit wit them togther. of course i move first, the rest was to scare. hua3. kinda interesting sitting togther. ther are bunch of sexy guys. ( which they call themselves us, which they are not.) haha, i had a chance to beat up sum coz, he started to play game wit my sock. my tiny n cute pencil. n i was angry, that wat i hate most. so he kinda of get it frm me. 2 big slap on the back. haha, sorry yah.
n yes this sum disturb dih n dah. coz dah cant do this sum so sum cannt do so pass to dih. n dih was taking such a long time. n than sum started this. dih, dah waiting for u. faster dih, dah is waiting. n so for. i was like laughing in slince! haha. u roz arh sum. next time do again yah. u knw we knw that. arg can say. lalala. ohh yah, wen rin sing, ohh my god, his voice is so the um m. undecribeable, veri the high. coz his actual voice was low mah. so i advise u to keep singing n improve on it.
during mendaki class, as usually i dnt listen. i, fifi n lyna was doin our own stuff. we kinda of write name on the paper tape. togther wit our name n the one we like. n we were so cal daring enough to paste it onto our bag n let everyone c. it was fun! guess whose name we wrote?

norma n ___. (a)
fitria n ____. (e)
waheedah n ____. (i)
lyna n ___. (u)

=] ( hint name contain this letter)
1:10 PM


band did it! they prove evrybody wrong.

they won GOLD WITH HONOURS! n they make it to the FINAL.

wohoo! u guys did well. good job. keep it up! =)



i met adik fiza. this idiot sis. was surprised of course. rite infront of me wit her mother. n she said i was sombong. hell no. if i were, i would not hav accompany u to buy water.

n BLOODY HELL there wasn't any shop that was open. u all dnt wan to make money izzit! stupid! idiot sellers. there was vending machine. n i had no coins! arhg.. n we kindna of planned to go mac. to buy drink. n we walk n walk. ask for directions but there was no sign of mac. that make us freaking angry. so we walk back to stadium. n than finally saw this uncle selling drink, right outside the stadium near the staircase. wtf, u should had come earlier! n that little freak sis go n play water on me. idiot u! it was cold. hmm.

becoz of this stupid water thingy, i missed half of the tk performance. shit lol. the overall performance was great. most of them are improving. thats good. more tougher competition ahead. work hard.
2:17 PM


today got the cross country. n i took 35 mins jus to complete the race. i run k. i did my best. haha.

after the whole thing ended. we fifi, dil, mas n me went to ama house. alamak her house, power man. FREE FOOD!. n its alot. n it tasted marvellous.u can eat all day long. nvr ending food. she will keep cooking. there deep fried chicken, steam crab stick, nasi goreng, hotdogs, otak2, nuggets, fries, ice cream n sprite. we ate like so many times. she keep feeding us. i think if i stay there for few days/weeks, who knows smday u will me fat. haha. we had fun, laughing, eating n sleeping. i had to go hm early coz i was havin dinner wit my family. so fifi when hm wit me.


reach hm at 6 plus. bath n get ready. n off to sakura, cp. n we had this.. .. ..

sweet n sour fish.

black pepper beef.

khai lan beef.

otas prawn.

n spring rolls.

finish eating. my family went shopping.everybody bought smthing expect me. how sad. =(

2:27 PM


my name nice to cal out meh?

hi norma. bye norma. hi norma. bye norma. repeated again n again. freaks man this people. got nth better to huh. hua3.

surprising leh, they join this stupid cca. today i saw them at hall coz i was havin break. n i took a peek n i think they saw me. wth. i dont wan them to knw i was there. aiyoh. should stay far3. lOl. they like gt so many cca lol.

kk. this is more weird. a fren of mine dreamt about me n dih. we were at the hall, i mean the second level of the hall. wat the name again. arg, i forget. we were siting beside each other. sitting on a chair i guess because my fren say his arms was resting at my chair. i was like siting half of the chair. some sort i never lean the chair lah. my fren said i dnt knw that his arms was there, so she some sort tel me arg. than dih looked at my fren in some kind of angry expression. than i turn ard. n i start kissing him.mouth to mouth. n people ard us was making those woo sound n my frens was shock. and my fren who dreamt abt me, sunddenly start to wake up from her sleep. so the end.

i was like laughing all the way. i found it so stupid n unbelieveable. from so many guys i knw. its him. n i kissed him in public, in school, in front of my classmates. hahaha. to unreal for me. so fake n so not goin to happen in real life. i hope. arghh.. hahaha..
10:06 AM


lEt c, i nvr go school today because.

I WAS LOCK AT HOME, THERE WASN'T A KEY.

my bloody sis wen to skool and lock the gates and forget to give the keys to my maid. FREAK!! how lame is my exucess? cool. wat m i suppose to say to my teacher? like she wan to believe wat i say.


chaos. i goin out to queensway.
1:10 AM


The more negative stuffs I hear about him, the more disgusted I get.
He and her in process of being together. Fine. She not bad either. I not that jealous anymore. I don’t care, seriously. I just cant stand the way you are right now. I wonder where was the last time him. Or is it that the really him?
Next I would hear. He hugged someone outside physics lab and it is a lower sec girl. Ohh my god. You have a steady? A lower sec gal? Than the upper sec one? What happen to her? ohh lord, you are one freaking guy. I seriously have no words to describe you any more. I m freaking disgusted by who you are. One not enough? huh?
Get lost man. I ain’t wanna see you anymore. u aint the same, u are different.





n than i realise that i was stupid to like him. i mean totally over about him. yeah i did some recalling memories and i laught. i was one nit wit person back there. i never appreciated the things i had. i kinda of regret what i did to him. n yah. it will be one learning experience. i learn from my mistakes. what shit, i will try to make things better.
12:30 PM


MY MUM WENT WORK TODAY. YEAH2.


been one whole year, she on medical leave. n today, finally she step out of the house to go work. i m hapi for her. she wont be bored to death at hm animore n wats more. no more tv for her. hua3. i can hav the whole tv to myself. double hapi. hope she would be safe. she aint that strong yet. =)
9:22 AM


went to the bowen art performance. totally not good. i mean the audiences was like so stupid, making to much noise in btw the show. not funny also can laugh. haven finish wan to clap. n wats more. they r freaking late n noisey. thankgoodness the guest of honour come later during the second performance. mine was the first time slot. if not make a fool of bowen secondary school. malu lol. beside that the tickets was sold for $50, $20 n $10. the cheaper ones are sold to the bowenians. e $50, i guess those visitors. i tell u arhg, wasted man they buy. really not worth it. mine was free of charge. haha. becoz rite onli some performance was nice. the international dance was freaking cool! i like that one. the rest like not ohh k lah. like so bored. n so for lah.

i mus says the place is darm far frm the mrt station. n u had to walk up 90 step to reach the surface. n u hav to walk a long way to reach the building, which was freaking hot. n wen u reach the place is like freaking cool. hahaz.

than, finish that. we went ang mo kio to hav lunch at pizza hut. ohh yah, i had attachment wit liana. n i met lyna n her mum n her sis. n many other teachers bring their sons n daughters. yeah. they so cute.

n i had this. which i dnt knw wat izzit. nice.

n i took a photo of myself. yeah. pony tails. haha. =)

11:22 AM


from all the ppl i knw, y muz i saw zai n der wit the chinese gal. like i gt do smth wrong. y today? at the mrt station? i saw enough at skool already! i had freaking enough lookin at ur stupid face n behaviour wit them. i felt stupid to believe wat u said. fuck.

y today wen i go out? wen i wanted to hav fun. no wonder i felt like not goin out today but i did. freak y did i not stay at hm! u dnt hav to saw wat u had saw juz now. idiot!

wat more. today i nvr watch movie like we plan to. suck. coz no time slot. aniway it a gd thing too. dnt hav to c them coz they plan to wacth movie at the same place. so met my fren boifren n his fren. wah liao. other suck thing to do. so many ppl. they like gt so many pit stop, standing n waiting for nth. n some more, we spend the whole day doin nth but walking n sitting doin nth. stupid arg norma. c lah. plan nt to go out, but u did. c wat happen. wasted one whole day doin nth. if not can do hmwk. aiyoh.

thankgoodness. i msg hid. if not. i tell u. i dont knw wat to do.

wat a stupid day, walkin, doin nth n heartbroken. yucks. =<
2:57 PM


To: Superintendent Melvin Singh
From: Mr. Lalji Tandom

Stampede that took place at Lucknow

My name is Mr. Lalji Tandon, a member of Indian Prime Minister Atal Behari Vajapayee's BJP party. I was at Lucknow at 2.30pm on the 23th February 2006. I was there because I was one of the organizers who planed out this event and I wanted to celebrate my birthday with the citizen of Lucknow.

Everything turns out well planned when my officials were giving out free saris to the citizen of Lucknow to show my gratitude to them. As time passed by, trouble started when rumors spread through the crowd that there was no more saris to given away to them. There was a sudden pressure from all the sides of the tent. The citizens were running and pushing each other in all different direction to get hold of their free saris.

As the citizens were rushing inside the tent, the bamboo poles which supported the tent begins to collapsed and people started to run out quickly from all sides to protect themselves. As they were running, the citizens was screaming and shouting their lungs out for help. Some of my official tried to stop the distribution of saris, however it was too late. Everything had gone haywire and chaos. Things had become worse when there was a several chairs and hundreds of scandal been thrown all around the area.

I had no choice to leave the chaotic scene as I had to attend something important. I felt devastated when I heard that the stampede occurred right after I left the park.

In my opinion, if the people were more patient and calm, this incident would had been prevented. I felt this was partially my fault as I could have thought of a better location to hold the distribution.

I would like to send my apologies to the families that were involved in the incident. I hope you will take appropriate actions to solve and help families who are affected.


24 February
Mr. LaLji Tandon
[Norma, 12, 5A1]
3:14 AM


I m really not myself. I m so sorry. I dont know which one believe. Which are the facts? What is right? What is wrong? Doubts everywhere. Uncertain about stuff that going on.

Why must I know this now, why must I? What wrongs did I do? Is it wrong just to admire a person so badly? I never ask for much but just a friend to talk to, replying each other messages n enjoy each other accompany. Is that too much to ask?

Can all those words be taken back? I dont wan to listen.

I not strong enough. I weak.
2:34 PM


I am freaking piss off wit u. I never once thought u would be..

One freaking, idiotic, sicking, dirty, desperate and immature guy.

Never once came across my mind that you are one bloody hell such person. You seem to be kind, funny, interesting and so for. I thought u were some one different. Different from the others guy I know. Special in some ways that I cant see from other guys. But the fact is you are not. You are the same as the others. All they could ever think is sex. You talking about sex is like something that I cannot believe, cannot imagine some more.

Freak what have you been learning? All those talk about. Lie is sin. Never once thought of having a relationship now. Never drink alcohol. Mummy boy. Those meaningful messages you type. What bullshit. All of those are just packs of lie. You did everything in an opposite ways. Fuck you. Idiot you.

You think I want to be fool by you again and again. Bloody hell no k. I will wait patiently and keep quiet until I cant take it anymore. And one day I going to slap your face if I have a chance too because I hate u for lying to me. As you teach me that lie is a bad thing. Freak. I want to see how much u had lie to me. I not stupid k.

I wonder how desperate can u. you stead wit this gal because of how she dress. Which is some sort of revealing her body just because she wore short mini skirt. Freak! You love her because of how she dress and not because of how much you love her. Bloody hell, what kind of guy are you. Ok, guys go for looks. But she? Like what the fuck. She innocent k. beside that you ask her for? Huh? You are one dirty minded guy k. I can’t imagine a guy like you saying that to her. You and not someone else. Is there something wrong with you? Your brain not functioning is it? Freak man.

I wonder those entire thing you said was really true and meaningful or just other little act of lie of yours? Have u change to some more better now that the last you.

Everyday, I try to have a glance look of you to make me feel happy and cheerful. But now I don’t think so. I have doubts about who you are.

I really hope, you are not that kind of person I heard. It seems too unbelievable.

I never regret waiting.I make my decision and I will take the consequences.
1:20 PM


All that conversation we had was just a joke to us. To me, it is not a joke. Because I had already express what I wanted to say for quite a long time. At last I admitted what I wan to said n it has been done. No more keeping it. We had laughter every now n then, smiley face, stupid behaviors n so on. N I hope this will continue forever even though I.. .. ..



Thank you fate.

To u it will always be a joke. But the fact is, truth.
2:11 PM


a fREn oF minE saiD thAT i m diffEreNt fRom thEm. i m sPeciaL. haHAz. whO knOWs if mAy bE a goOD onE oR a bAd oNE. but whO cAReS. i m diFfErEnt. laLAlA. we knW eaCh othEr not lONg agO, n i m diffEreNt. =] nutS riTE.


iT waS a rumouRs. but i dnT bElieVE iT. caNnot hiDe it fRM mE. i knW.


biG siS saiD niTez to littLE bRo.


i hAv no idEA y he caLl mE seXy, whICh i m noT. addiCted to thE workshOp, i guESs. oHh yaH. he sExY? i dnt thiNk so. i hoTtEy. i dNt thiNk so. haHAZ. m i? hmMm. =?


haVe high self estEem eveRyonE. beneFits aLot.


e adaM kHoo worKshOp entrY wiLl be uP sOOn untiL i haV aLL tHE pIC n vidEo reaDy. okiEs.
3:56 AM


art suck. sian3. school suck. bad3. hmwk suck die3. test suck shit3. haha.

norma u r not doin wat u r suppose to do.

DO U REMEMBER WAT U LEARN DURING THE ADAM KHOO WORKSHOP?

die3. i think i need brainwash again!

i wan Ramesh, Eugene n Melvin.

will update soon abt the course. fun3.

2:57 PM