it's hot chip!

Thursday, March 30, 2006
shrug

went hm. eat lunch. update mp3. got to knw, my mp3 CANNOT on. twice already, bloody hell i panic arhg. wat m i suppose to listen on the way to skool later.

nvr mind still gt hp. freak lol, the vol of my hp music is so soft. veri soft. argh. not nice to listen but no choice. so mad.

than saw zai in skool. [ go skool for mendaki class] of course i wan to act as if i nvr c him lah. so pretend to use hp. got to knw he suddenly stand infront n say hi. weird man. wen i wanted to c him, he act as if i wasnt there. wen i dnt wan to c him, i act as if he wasnt there. bunkum lol! der was there, wish him happy b'dae. than this zai u wish me happy b'dae. alamak, like i knw when is urs. perasaan betul bdk ni ehh. haha. than talk to laam, abt the video i took when he was running. talk3, i was late to class. so say bye2 lol.

at least smth gd happen in skool. at least my anger went down abit. haha. found out that every wed wen i wan to go class mendaki. surely saw him n his fren. hopely can continue like this. hehe.

wats more. the mendaki class was so call no class. haha. talk abt shyness problem for 1 +hr. that the head of mendaki came down, talk to our chear. so waste time. in the end we start class 30 mins before class end. hua3. u roz arh chear. next time u talk rubbish arh, more interesting to hear. okies!

HAPPY 16th B'DAE HAIDER! =]

1:46 PM

Tuesday, March 28, 2006
give me a life

let just say that i m veri bored wit the kind of life i m having. ohh lord. when can a person walk rite pass infront off me. i m waiting n waiting.

i getting over wit my pass memories. so give me a a fresh n new life man!

sick n tired of hearing all those stuff......

ohh yaH, wont be spending my day studying coz there a fucking program that we hav to go to. start early in the morning n end late night. fuck lol. u think i wan to come, no way man. get lost.

argh.. i miss a chance to be wit him. if i had onli use my brain properly last year. how nitwit can i be! fuck lol.

who cares if u dnt like doremon. my fault izzit, my dpic got me n my doremon. bloody hell no k. u say i not cute, nvr mind but than u dont hav to say i look worst than doremon k. idiot u, i like doremon k. u wait tml. i getting my hand to slap ur face soon. mmm.

i m freaking jealous! becoz others could hav him but not me. arghh. cannt accept the fact. hate u arh.

did i ever mention that i hate ppl who are forgetful. forgetful in sense when they know that they hav plan on that day wit me, but they forgot. fuck u. when will they grow up. especially guys. argh! twice already! idiot u lah.

1:31 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006
skiN

i thiNk i gEt tHE idea hoW to do bloGskIn liao. yeAh3.

if u thiNK it is uglY, i dNt caRe! coZ i liKE iT. hua3.

Can today be next saT? haiZ. muz waiT.. .. .. ..

8:27 PM

my parentS annivErsarY

had dinner wit my family. coz it was my parents anniversary. i didnt knw until we were leaving the restaurant. haha. bad child. i wont explain much arh. c the pics ohh k.

at compass point sakura restaurant. n we ordered..

beef kai lan.

hotplate peper beef.

hotplate beancurb.

oats prawn.

n hotplate curry seabass.

i m hurgry. argh. lets eat.

i was e first to finish eating. haha.

n soon all the food was finish. thought can go already but no..

we had to wait until my parents finish their coffee. argh.

time pass. n my dad pay the bill. i think its cheap. compare to last year dinner lah. haha.

n than we went shopping. n wen hm.. .. ..

3:45 PM

SpoRt day, to mama houSe

lEt saY thAt my clASs nVr taKe paRt iN aNy evEnt yesTerdaY. haHAZ. wE darm slaCk maN. onli halF of thE claSs caME. maYbe noT halF laH. buT who caRes, wE dont inteND to wiN aNythinG aLSo. juZ comE for fuN. sOMe juSt waN to c, sOme goT theiR ccA gaMEs to taKE paRt in iT n soME got attaChmeNt liKE mE. mediA. haiZ.

interesTiNg i muZ saY. sOme teaChers taKE paRt to ruN tHE inter claSS relaY. whicH every onE selDom to c. n thiS yeaR sporT daY was a competition betwEen claSs levEl. so kinda oF fuN. likE aLWays it eND late. say 5.30pM but end uP 7pM. fuCk lOl. oHH yah, i went hm by foot nT buS. its a long journEY, aLonE some morE.

i met interesTinG peEps to. mY teC fREns. mY aRh, like onEs. n i haD fun wit mEdia toO. especiaLLy thiS freaKing hafiZ laH n junioRs. n thiS guY laH. whicH i sEldOm haD fun taLking wiT n hiS fREns too. haHAZ. =P

when hm, bath. going to mama house. to give ain b'dae present. haha. she so cute. gave her a doremon bear. n snow white doll. than chit chat, watch tv. than wen hm. onli 1 hr we spent n my father as to go hm. wah liao. so early. he arh, feel like killing him man. thankgoodness he treat us in supper at mac. if nt, everybody got black face. haha.

went hm straight away, i fall asleep. tired man! whole day sleep until 12 noon today. like pig siak me. hua3. can't blame me. i wanted to go but than he not free, he want to do his dnt work. so continue sleeping lol. haha. next week i goin out wit him. study3.

that me n ain. my freaking face suck man. haha.

haha. the doreman bear.

2:46 AM

Friday, March 24, 2006
cloSe to u

do you already know about me?
i keep remembering your white smile
and i start laughing like a fool

perhaps my eyes are faster than me,
looking for you as they miss you
and i keep seeing you

i wasn't familiar with it
i never loved anyone before
though i try to erase you who is becoming larger

is it okay to for me to love you?
is it okay for us to start?
my heart with its many wound
sit may cause you to cry

i didn't know how to love with words
or how it would hold on to you
the only thing i can give you is my heart
but without the courage to protect you
will you still love me?

i've become familiar
your white smile awakening me in the morning
has become my meaning of life

i was expecting it
that even for a day i would be here for you
that has become my wish

every now and then
when i see someone else in your eyes
a despair awakens me as if it's the end of the cliff

i never believed in love before
nor was i ever in love
i was living with a heart completely empty
which is now filling and spreading
with your love

3:57 PM

absent

i didn't came to skool today coz i was to lazy to wake up. haha. so i m stuck at hmwk doing the hmwk i had own for days. n i had to write a compo of 750 words abt my dad. argh. bloody hell. y muz i be the unlucky one to write this compo. if hmwk nvr mind arh. this one hand in for competition. through out of my life i nvr take part in any eng composition competition. aiyoh. my eng is like so bad already! so unlucky man.

yeah3, my canvas drawing is on display at the artists corner. hahaz. i surely going to hear bad comments abt my drawing. nvr mind. at least there is smth that i can remember. even through it is bad. lalala.

4:23 AM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006
nah. but i wan

Seriously i need someone to encourage me to study. i tend to copy my friend homework almost all the time. i’m too lazy to do anything expect to watch tv. i want someone to tutor me. i seriously don’t get what the bloody hell the teacher is teaching. i tend to fall asleep in class. N so for. n o level is coming soon. too soon.Can I ask this particular person to teach me? kinda of like his way of studying together. Opps. i think i just want to close to him. haha.No lah. he kinda smart actually. so can ask alot of question. but than.. nah.. but i wan.. but i can't..

where is my design. u said on monday. than tuesday i ask and u said wednesday. i wonder when will i get that design. arhh. i dnt wan to do extra work! faster lah. ur hair cut dont suit u well. haha.

have confidence in urself that someone in love wit u. haha. try guess who.

4:00 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006
kinda of like it

this one whole week i have been smsing him more that wat i use to. itchy fingers i guess. hahaz. seriously i gt nth to do. so kinda of bored, so i start typing n send to him. lalala. k3, i getting out hand. i m to crazy abt him. but to bad i juz can't him. so let it be. i dnt give a darm. its my life. hahaha.

apasal aku bbual dgn dier. dier reply i u. pada hal aku bbual awak kite. ? Mmm. i kinda of like it actually, hehe. =]

12:13 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
mly caMp

todaY i wEn sKoOL. i caN't belieVe i woKe up juSt to gO mY mlY claSs. baSicaLly thEre WaS nth intersting sO i thoUght of not comIng, buT i did. becoz my fREn aSk mE to.

yaH3, waLk to skoOl as usuaL. witH sleepY faCe. haLf awake. suRprisELy aWakEn bY thiS imaGe of guyS. i thoughT it waS a revEriE. but blooDly hELL no! thiS peePS waS sayiNg hi to mE. i some sort cant belieVe he is infrOnt oF mE, waving, saYing hi. fateD or wat? i wAS so blur2, acting like one nitwit persOn. haHAz. nvR minD at leaSt it haS givEn mE onE min of haPpineSs. laME3.

mlY remediaL which wAS supposE to bE caLleD mly caMp. wAS interstiNg. kinDa oF fuNny. coZ cikgU didnt really plan waT to dO. juSt go throuGh some paPers n worksheeTs. besidE, cikgu wAS not aCting liKE shE usE too. morE to bunkuM taLkinG. not juSt hEr bUt us Too, laughters every now n than. tHE lunCh was providEd bY mr farid wiFe own cooKing. nicE of course bUt thEre was coMplains. demaNdindg for more. haHAz. sWeeTS werE giVEn to prevEnt us from sleePinG, i gueSs. buT it wAS't enough for uS. =X

i nvr thought i would able to c n talk to u today. .. .. ..

3:47 PM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006
haPpy b'daE to aiN

todaY i waS aWaKen bY mY hP alarM cloCk. beCoZ oF soMeonE b'daE daY. thaT is aIn. todaY is hEr 2nD b'daE. yeaH2.
haPpy b'daE to u. haPpy b'daE to u. haPpy b'dae to aIn. haPpy b'daE to u. laLAlala. hopE sHE haV a wondErfuL timE todaY pluS lotS of presEntieS n caKEs. haHAha.
wiLL bE celebraTing her b'daE thIS cominG saT. iF not wronG. aT pasir rIS foR a bbQ. caNnoT waiT to c aLL my cousIn, mY bapak, my maK n thE otHErS. haHA..

thiS is aiN. so cutE n aDorAbLe riTE.

oHh yah i waS awaKen By cikgU phonE caLL. thaN laTer my fRen mSg. teLLinG mE no mendaki. coZ, it sTart aT 8 aM. i thouGht 4 pM. likE wtf. i donE my maTh hmWK late niTE lOl. wEd aLSo no mendaKi becoZ got soME sOrt oF mly camP. laH. waNted to go, at leaSt i leaRn smth duriNg the holidaY thaN doinG hmWks. aRrHh. theRe to muCh to Do. yeT so littlE timE.

1:21 AM

Sunday, March 12, 2006
iF

if iT is trUE that we r faTEd to knOW each othEr. thaN i gueSs its corrEct. been seeiNg u in a surprIsiNg manNEr. in weirD waYS. uNexpeCtedLy. riTe besIde mE. so neAr that i wiLl acT sO stupiD. haHAs.

i enjoY every miN we spenT but i won't be having high hopE thaT i caN hav u compleTeLy. maYbe its goOd it wE staY as fREn for noW. if caN more than that i aLSo waN. but wont happen laH. so i thiNk i wiLl waiT.

so waitinG in silence.

4:19 AM

Friday, March 10, 2006
reSult

hEre is mY resUlt fOR mY ComMoN teSt.

Eng = 9/25
Math = 48.5/50
Phy = 15/30
Chem = 8/25
Geo = 10/20
Ss = 8/13
MalaY = 27/70
Art = 74/100

u c, i oNli paSS mY cOm hUmaN, maTh n aRt. hoW suCks! moreovEr the subject i pass iS JUST paSs. bloody hell lol. aRhH. i waN a tutoR to teaCh mE. iF thiS continUe, i m sureLy dead mEat. =X

1:20 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006
fine i guess

i thinK. it ohh k between us. i guess. had no idea lah. but at least we ask for forgiveness n accepted it. who knows wat goin through our mind. i not them n they not me. haha. aniway. at least fren bah, than enemy lol. as usual i guess? mmm..

i think i getting more n more honest in my ans bah. i think i hurt people feelings more than before. i think no use of hidding it, coz sooner or later they would hear it from others. so might as well i say lol. so if i done it to u. i m so sorry. if u not happy wit ime, u can even slap my face. i fine wit that. if that please u lah, really. but dont slap ani how lah.

arh, than rite. to this particular guy. thanks for nice comments n advise u give lah. u c, i said it liao. thick skin lah, but veri sincere wit my words k, get that straight hor. so dnt anihow say.

wat we plan was a world of fantasy but ending up wit scary nitemare. if i could onli take back my words on wat i suggested. thing would be like this. i hope nothing worst goin to happen later.

3:45 AM

Sunday, March 05, 2006
thank u.

he said, " we are like fated to know each other".
i said, " haha, maybe, i think. almost all e same. who knows".

..... i m thankful that i gt to know u. wish we could be there for each other in times of boredness n help. if i could onli hav....

2:58 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006
dead

mmm, i think i m dead. i m losing a fren. later 4 more. ohh lord. juzt becoz i have to shut up. juz to keep this stupid sercet from anione. n juz becoz i dnt wan to hurt anione. ohh lord, i stuck being myself again. yaH3. nvr mind. this ppl hav no idea how much pain there are goin to go through, if i tell the truth. therefore i would not tell, even i have to suffer for other 7 mths. thats so long! will i survive? =?

haiz maYbe the truth will say it out sooner or later.

ohh yah, one year,today. think have to move on. wish me luck i guess.

6:59 AM

Thursday, March 02, 2006
rumors

haiZ. rumors are still there.my fren arh. idiot him. think i m his galfren. like hell no. FREN ONLI. i wasn't dating, i was studying. n he was doing the same thing too. wan to tell the whole skool izzit? tell arh, i not afraid. he not bad also. can still tahan k. more better than u. haha. jealous izzit? lalala.

art? ohh lord. to much thing to hand in next week. 3/4 of plate 4 must hand in. n i got no ideas wat to draw. can the expert artist who i know teach me. if he gt c this lah. haha. u knw who.

math test was easy. can do expect this question 16/m^2 = 25/m. that one i dont knw if i do correct anot. maybe got careless mistakes lah, like always.

tution was great. the teacher knock my head. haha. coz i was making stupid remark abt smth, i guess or izzit abt him. even the teacher was making a fool n stupid too. haha. he is a fun loving n funny teacher lah. i love my mendaki teacher. teach me more.

still in silence. mmm.

12:30 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006
smiles

today recess time sat togthere with der, zai lam. [ weird short form name, haha.] actually i dnt knw lah, becoz i was busy studying. than got this voice "hey norma". i like wow. its him, omg! haha. he is so cute.i like smiling all the way while studying n looking at him of course. haha. cannot resist his smile lol. its like so perfect. haha.
i dnt knw y today i can talk wit der. usually it nvr happen. juz say hi onli lah. mostly talk abt art lah. he was having running nose today same as me. so i offer my packet of tissue. but i took onli piece first. haha. u c, i m a kind hearted person leh.

than after skool got lunch wat. than ternampak dorang lagi. zai was like so into studying. n he look even cuter when he is studying wit his spec on. wah. than rite my fren lah. start this topic or izzit a dare. that she wan to tell him than i like. i like yah3, watever. than she go n shout or izzit my other fren. than i was like, wat the fuck. i go n beat her wit my file. that was bad of me. coz i usually hold my temper one. but than i dnt like ppl disturb me, abt love stuff. becoz i dnt wan to look like a fool u c. sorry bah to u knw who.

test was suck. bloody hell, the chem paper was so hard. wat he ask to learn nvr come out lol. phy not bad arh. careless mistake i guess.

oHh yah, i was separate wit my other classmates for mly class. so call not in a gd class. the fact was rite i m so totally not good in my mly. n yet i still don't even undstd wat the other teacher taught me today. i was darm lost. my basic mly not there. aiyoh. how to pass o level. can i drop e subject?

after test when j8. to accompany dil to take her jig saw puzzle. than had lunch wit fida, rin, fifi n dil. it was dil treat today. ate at ljs. than went hm. we were making lots of sounds i guess, esp me. i almost make this uncle heart attack becoz of my laughter. haha.

ohh lord, today was so call no fighting btw my frens. there was silents btw them.

12:31 PM