i likE u sO muCh.. bUt thaN i caN't haVe u.. y??wE treat eaCh othEr aS iF wE r traNspAreNt.. usuaLLy wE taLk, if wE mEet eaCh otHEr.. bUt nOW.. WE keeP quiEt n loOk aWaY..noT a singLE woRd saiD..thE smiLE oF uR faCe juZ disaPpeaR juZ liKE thaT..thaT smilE tHE waS not thE sAMe animoRe..u chaNgE to diffEreNt persOn thaT i nvR knEw.. if wE caN't bE togetHer..can we at lEast bE freN??
10:32 AM


iT wAS laTe.. it wAS timE to go hM afteR everyOne haD theY diNnEr at rivErvaLE plaZE aT kFc.. mAS wAS sO saD.. so decidEd to sEnd hEr hM.. i muZ.. coZ sHE wAS thEre for mE so i muZ bE thErE foR.. wHo careS.. iF go no buS.. hahAz.. likE reaL..
aNiway, shE wAS sO saD.. bEcOZ thiS guY don't liKE hEr..u knOW i aLWaYS bluR.. thaN caNnot remEmbEr naME.. so i liKE sO dARm bluR.. thaN got to knoW, sHE likE thiS guY.. not thaT handsomE.. oMg, i likE so shoCk.. firsT timE shE likE a guy wiToUt a gooD apperaNce.. hahAZ.. wAT to dO lovE is blinD.. thaT is so correCt..
sO sEnd hEr hOme.. go in.. wAlk uP to hEr room.. n start talkinG.. aBt hEr problemS firsT.. thaN shE felT abit2 haPPy n go on to sOme othEr topiC.. if i nVr had sEnd hEr hoMe n staY for a whilE.. i gueSs i lEft oUt sO maNy stories thaT haPpeninG ard ME.. i feLt sO weaK insiDe wHEn maS starteD taLkinG abt mE, thEm, hiM n shE.. felt liKE cryiNg but i can't.. i kEeP laUghting.. sOmE of tHE stoRiEs.. hey, wRong.. aLL thE storiEs.. so thE touchinG.. i caN't imagiNE hE stiLL felt that waY n my freN tOo.. it'S likE sO haRd to beliEvE.. bUt its tHE truE..
iF i nVR knEw wAT wAs theiR relatioNShiP aT firsT.. tHE feelinG of my woulD alwaYS bE there.. buT sincE i knoW, thaT feeliNg wilL bE goNE.. n i haPPy aBt iT.. i nVR thougHt that persOn WaS feelinG sO doWn thiS fewS daYS.. waNted To cRy.. cAN't imaginE hoW thAT persOn felt.. sorry tO heaR thaT story oF uRs.. noT beinG kPo.. buT jUZ wan to knOW.. bE haPPy yaH, wiT thEm.. hahAZ..
aniwaY, thaT aLL.. i nvR regret goiNg hM laTe n gettinG scolDinG froM mY mUM n daD.. if noT i wouLD noT knOW waT haPPeniNg.. i wouLD thaN stuck in thiS bluR worlD of minE..
5:03 PM


oMg.. i waS tHE onli onE who weaR thE tudunG [scaRf] aMoNgs my cousiNs.. i was aT mY neneK housE.. i feLT sO maLu.. sO stupiD.. usUaLLy i wAs tHE onE who nvR usE thE scaRf.. buT noW, tHEy wAs thE onE wHo nvR usE thE sCArf.. oMg!!hoW weirD caN i bE riTE.. norMA relAx.. at least u r beiNg n innocEnt freaK infroNt of uR granDma n tHE otHErs.. n tHEy wiLL jugdE u sMth goOD.. hahAZ. wAt shiT.. actuaLLy truE laH.. evEryonE saiD thiS.. " dAh anaKdAra pUn.." haha.. mY cousIn caN't evEn noticE iT was mE.. haHAz.. i guEss i looK weiRd!! haHAz.. i feLt sO boREd WHEn tHE part tHEy staRteD taLkinG abt sOme stuFf.. thaN somE moRe caNnot taLk.. muZ lisTen.. thaN i dOn't undErataNd.. sO thiS haS resUlT mE to usE my hP n sMS ppL.. hahAz.. adiK nvR repLy.. wHEn i reaCh hM than sHE repLy.. shE forgEt to bring hEr hEp aLonG to hEr siS housE.. haHAz..
thaN thiS is WAt i saiD tO hiM.." u saiD thaT lyiNg WAS a siN n yeT u liE.." thaT iT.. shoRt n simpLe.. hE nvR repLy.. thaT mEanS hE diD liE to ME.. hoW coulD u.. iF hE haD nVR liE, hE woulD havE repLy thaT mSg ritE?? i haTe u.. u sAiD thaT thEre nTh to liE abt.. but u liE.. i hate ppL who liE to mE.. sO don't liE.. lyiNg is a siN!!
2:45 PM


haHAz.. in skOol hE goT caught.. n hiS frEn tOo.. thiNK sO beCoZ of hiS haiR.. n thaN caUght agaIn bEcOZ oF hiS paNtS.. haHAz.. aIyoH.. hE look sO stupiD.. but aT leaSt hE nvR wEaR hiS sPEc.. aNiwAy, hiS fREn looK ugLy tOo.. hiS haiR sO ugLy.. hE go n WASh hiS haiR.. thaN his haIR looK so flAt.. wAkAKa.. boTh look stupiD.. buT cooL.. haHAz.. i laUgh likE heLL!! funNy lEh..
in skoOl.. i mEAn in my claSs.. omG.. i muz wriTE smTh fOR my fREn.. i totALLy foRgoT.. but than ijAh n lia n maS helP mE.. haHAz.. thaNk yaH.. i dOn't knOW wAt to wRiTE, sO i tooK tHE onE wHolE dAY to complEte iT.. whEN giving tHE paPer n WENt back to mY siT.. aLamaK.. mY legS becaME jelLy.. i don't knOW.. scareD iF i wRoTE smTh stupiD.. haHAz.. laME..
aFtEr skoOl, WenT cP libArY aLonE.. thaT maS laH, sHE nVr coME to skOOl.. haiZ.. sO wEnt thEre, reTurn booK n looK fOR books agaIn..
reaCh hM, caLL hEr.. sHE ask iF i wAn tO gO hER houSE.. sO juZ go lOl.. aLamAk, mY heaRt pumping siaK.. sO scaRed.. dOn't knoW y.. likE so lonG nvR reaLLy wenT ouT wiT thEm.. thaN i sO not in theiR grouP.. coZ of sMth.. thaN liKE sittiNG theRE, don't knoW waT to taLk aBt.. thaN sOmetimE.. i feeL that i dID thE ritE thiNg noT to retuRn theiR grouP.. beCoz oF my, aRh, caNNot saY.. sORrY, yaH..
timE to go hM.. evEryonE wAs goiNg thE saME wAY to gO hM buT not mE.. i go houganG librarY..who caREs.. i feLt haPPY, to get ouT.. aNiwAy, mEet mY fREn.. taLk2, finD booK n thEn wEnt hoME..
oHh yaH, i fORgEt to haNd in mY sPo covEr page.. so saD siaK.. haiZ..
1:10 PM


thiS paSs fEW days i bEen mSg hiM.. thE guY whO i likE.. he diD repLy..
i dOn't knOW wHEn thAT i tolD him thAt i miSs him.. n hE sAY i miSs u tOo.. i serioUslY caNnot bElieVE wAt hE saiD.. becOZ hE thE kinD oF guY wHo jokE ard.. but hE tolD mE wAS not a faLse sEntenCe.. n thEre nTh to liE abT.. sO i belieVE iT.. i waS likE sO happy.. n kEeP wonderiNg aBt it wAt hE saiD wAs reaLLy truE..tHAn i guEss hE knOW thaT i liKE him..
but than.. thinGs changE.. tHEre thiS onE dAY, i aSk hiM.. he cOnsiDer mE aS a.. juZ freN, admiRE, someonE speciaL, a siS oR smth elSe.. n guESs WAt hE saiD.. as a siS.. i feLt so heartbrokEn.. i admiT that i likE hiM.. i usE to shy gaL, dOn't dare to dO thiS n thaT.. buT after knoWing hiM.. i wAS noT sHy.. i jUZ keep contiNue msg him, aLmoSt every niTE.. teLLimg him that i miSs hiM.. aS him to go ouT wiT mE.. usuaLLy i dOn't do thaT.. i juZ keeP quieT.. dO nTh bUt to waiT foR mirAcLE to haPPEn.. nOW.. omG, i don't dAre to c hiS fACe.. i feLt so maLu.. i felT so stupiD to do aLl thoSE thinGs..
hoW could hE sAy hE misS mE.. n not a liE.. whEn he treatEd mE aS a siS?? hUH?? i dOn't gEt hiM.. caN't hE c that i jUZ likE hiM.. is hE thaT stupiD?? oMg.. i haTE myselF!!!
7:20 AM


aRh, prEvioUS poSt ritE.. hmm, if u thiNk i m refEring to U.. i sO soRRy.. thE feeLinG juZ can't bE contRoL.. sO somEtimE i intEnd to bE sO overReaCted.. sO yaH, soRry agaiN.. Don't reaLLy meaN it..
5:08 PM


wAt tHE heLL.. u got no othEr plaCe to sIt iZziT?? i haTe u faCe sO muCh.. diD u knoW tHAt.. evEry wHEre i tuRn iT muZ bE uR faCe.. infRoNt oF mE somE moRe.. wAt tHE heLL.. if iT iS niCE to c, iTs oHh k lAH.. buT tHE fACe oF uRs juZ mAKe mE sICk.. feeL likE slaPping uR fACe.. but thAN huH.. i keeP myseLF calm.. aLL i coulD dO it juZ to bersAbaR!! thaT idioT faCe n thaT idioT frEn.. oMg.. dO u knoW hoW maD i m.. mcM taK adE laIn kE.. buT thEm?? haiZ.. forgEt iT.. thankgoodnEss i haVe my eaR peicE in my eaR.. tryiNg hard noT to hEaR.. lookinG doWn n readinG mY geO booK.. juZ noT to sEe their faces... wat shIt.. y mUz i bE in thE sAme claSs wiT thEm?? i wAN to gEt ouT oF tHaT claSs.. haiZ.. enough aBt iT.. mY blooDs wEnt Up taLkinG abt tHEM.. mcM bodoH giTu..
yEAh2.. aftEr skoOl got c hiS faCe.. fOR a shoRt miN.. likE thaT also haPPy.. who careS.. i waS jumpiNg outsidE my cLaSs.. wiTh a biggEsT smiLE oN mY faCe.. u knoW hoW haPPy i feLt.. juZ a looK at hiS fACe.. meanS aloT to mE.. buT thAN i knOW i caN't haVE hiM.. sO it'S juZ a faNtasy to mE.. haiZ.. iF hE onli kneW i likE hiM.. hMm.. i guEss hE won't belieVE it aLSo.. hahAz.. coNfiRM nvR taLk aGain.. thaN bE sTrangErs.. haiZ.. sO thaT y, i juZ kEpt iT.. n bE frEn lOl.. hMm.. sOb2..
7:31 AM


oMg.. thAT sickinG guY nvR accompany mE go ouT!! hE sAid thiS weeK onE.. bUt hE, hiMsElF not fREe.. wAn to kiLL hIm sO bAdLY.. hE maKE mE go tO tHE liBrArY twicE.. aLonE!! shiT hiM!! haHAz.. jokiNg.. aNiwAY i usE to iT.. sO not a biG problEm..
wEnt aNg mo kiO LibraRy firSt.. staY thEre abt 2 hrS pluS.. dOn't evEn knoW waT i wAS findinG.. so i juZ borrOW any booKs thaT i knOW hoW to dRAW.. laME riTE.. wAt to dO, i haVen thiNk of wAt to dRaW fOR my composiTioN.. haiZ..
thAN wEnt to cOmpasS point librAry.. tO trY my luCk.. iF i can fInd aNy idEAs to dRaW.. buT no.. sO i continuE fliping thE booKs.. haHAz..
thaN wEnt hm.. reaCh Hm aT 9.30 pM.. so tirEd.. aCtuaLLy boREd.. n thaTs tHE enD.. haHAz..
1:21 PM


hEre anotHEr entRy to u guYS..

1 weeK haS paSs.. ritE?? somEtimEs i..

wAN to sAY aLot oF thinGs haPPen dUring thiS week?? i doN't knOW.. maYbE abit.. maYbE aLot.. AVerage i guEss..[cld be wroNg..]

wan to sAY i haPPy wiT thIS lifE oF my?? maYbE yESh.. giVe ME sOme timE n i wiLL workS thinG out.. i mEt nEW frEn.. enjoy iT tOo.. my mUm iS fiNE[dOn't haVe to woRry].. buT mY studiEs stiLL sUcks.. maYbE this is tHE laSt yeaR.. i knoW u guyS wAn to sAy thiS, "norMA studY harD!!" somthiNg liKE thaT.. i knoW.. hahAz..

wan to sAy i m in lovE?? thaT onE i cAN confiRm.. thaTs tHE guy i lookiNg fOR.. u knOW wHo?? mY supErmaN.. haHAz. oUt oF poinT.. sOrrY..

Wan to sAy i miSs u guyS?? i aLSo dOn't knoW.. maybE sOmetiME.. maybE not at aLL.. bEcOZ somEtiME it's juZ huRts.. if u get wAt i meAN..

wAN to sAY tHaT i kEpT running aWay froM u guYS?? tHAt oNE iS sO trUE.. toLD u guyS i caN't taLk fAce to fAcE.. [did i tEll?? hMm.. doN'T knOW..]

waN to sAy i misundErsTooD sOmEthingS?? thAt iS completely trUE.. sO hEre i m writINg aT thiS bloG oF minE.. to teLL u guyS somethiNg..

diD i not teLL u guyS noT to feeL saD wHen readinG mY bloG.. maybE mY fauLt.. to emOtionaL writInG that entRy.. sO this timE i maKe thiS entrY aBit funNy.. sO tHAt thEre WILL BE NO oR ANY teaRs bE foRM in ur eyES!! undErsTAnd?? do i have to rePEat??
"ATTENTION READERS PLEASE DO NOT CRY OR FEEL SAD READING MY ENTRY!!" haHAZ..

lETs sTArt waT had haPPEn oN tuesdAy k.. i wroTe thaT entRy oN tuesDay riTE.. n ifAH wAS tHE onE who reaD it fiRst.. coZ i toLd HEr sO.. n sHE thaN cALL.. but i nvR picK uP.. nexT caLL frOm maS.. i aLSo nvR piCk up.. i m sOrry, i nVR pick uP that caLL coZ i wAs aT hospitaL wit mY mUm n tHE oTherS n aLSo i nVR briNg mY hP alonG.. sO soRry, yaH.. aniwaY, i was not iN thE mooD to taLk oN tHe phoNe.. n tHAt y i nvR caLL u guyS back.. sO sOrrY agaIn!!

the nexT dAy.. wEdnesdAy..thaT wAs tHE first tiME i feLt sO afraid to coME to sKoOl.. actuaLLy i thought i dont wAn to coME to skOOl coZ to afraiD to faCe u guyS.. especiaLLy maS n ifaH.. cOZ i knoW, u guyS waN to taLk to mE.. m i correcT?? hahAz.. to baD i muZ coME to skoOl, i got maTh preliMS paPer.. so i ask sOmeOne heLp.. my supeRmaN.. haHAz.. agaiN normA sO laME.. aNiwaY.. u guys diD wAN to taLk to mE riTE.. receSs tiME wEnt uP to claSs.. thoUght no oNE saW mE.. thAN i heaRd, ifAh shoutinG acroSs tHE bloCk,"NORMA!!!!" omG!! my heaRt beaT fastEr maN.. feEL likE wAn to coME oUt fRom mY bodY.. dOn't feeL liKE waN to c u.. but to bad, u guyS spot mE.. waT thE heLL.. i waNted to aCt stupiD bUt caNNoT.. [actuaLLy i m stupiD..] feeL likE runniNg but waT tHE usE.. u guyS sAw mE.. cANnot dO anythINg but to sAY "i dOn't wAN".. haHAZ..

thoUght it wAS tHE enD.. coZ i dOn't wAn to go that bloCk.. sUddEnLy, surprisELy, sHockiNgLy ifAH caMe to my claSs.. aLamak!! thE more sTupid i feLt.. tolD her thaT i dOn't waN to Go.. sHe went oFf.. tHAN.. thE woresT thing haPPEn tHE whoLE groUp gEt ouT oThe class.. omG!! i m dead!! gOt no whEre to run.. i sO loSt.. goT to knOW.. thEy nvr coME.. i think ifah sAid thaT i do't wAN to c tHEm.. thaNk u arh mY freN.. u undersTAnd mE!! to teLL tHE truTH.. i not gooD at taLkinG faCe to fACe.. i onli caN expreSs in worDs.. likE wAT i m doing noW.. i caN't c faCes.. if not i wiLL staRt to cRy, foR no reaSons.. sO don't coME n lOOk foR mE to taLk thinGs oUt.. i noT gooD aT thAt.. i repeAt, i m NOT GOOD aT taLkinG facE To FAcE.. gEt it..

sO in coNclusioN, if guyS waN to taLk.. leaVe mE a voicE msg or wriTE iT aT ur bloG.. i wiLL reaD iT n listen to iT.. if i got thE timE.. bUt onE timE for suRe.. i wiLL sAY somethinG k..

to start oFf.. i had read ifAh bloG.. oHh.. u toLd mE wroNg info.. baD gaL.. hAhaz.. i knoW u care, cOZ u leaVe me a tag aT mY bolG.. sorry yaH.. dOn't feeL likE talkinG also.. n aLSo dOn't knOW wAt to taLk abt.. yaH sO riTE.. sO fAKE riTE.. aCtuaLLy, i can't taLk.. seeiNg uR faces, make mY shuT uP.. no idEA y alSo.. hahAz.. but aNiwAY, iTs mY fauLt.. i dId not teLL u guYS my problEMs.. sO dOn't haVe to feeL soRry yaH.. shoulD be mE sayinG thaT.. sOrrY yaH.. hEY.. whO aSk u to cRy.. hMm, nexT timE dOn't cRy lEh.. it's Not aS if i waS dieing.. sO next tiME muZ laugh.. haHaZ.. sWeet of u to sAY thaT wE r stiLL freN.. yUP.. maY not bE closE to u guyS.. but wE r stiLl fREn riTE?? hahAz.. thaNkz yaH..

neXt bloG i read was diL.. goT loTS oF misunderstandinG!! aFter readinG it.. wAt tHE helL.. haHAZ.. heLLo, fREn.. stiLL msg mE hUh?? sOrrY laH nvr repLy.. mY pre paId card no moneY liaO.. if nOt can repLy.. n also msg mY supermaN.. haHAz.. sORry hor can't haVe lunCh.. i wAS at thE hospitaL, cOZ my mUm caMEs hm aT tHE afterNooN.. sO fetCh hEr.. sOrry yaH.. u dOn't haVE to treaT mE lAh.. hahAz..

u tHE othEr onE.. aLSo feeL saD.. aiyoH.. muZ speaK chineSE izzit?? sO caN undErsTand?? haHAZ.. i aLready sAid that i wAs my fault for not telLing u guYS my problEms.. sO dOn't blaME iT to ursElF.. mY fault.. blaME mE!! i goT caRRy oUt aWAy..[sO truE.. belieVE it..] u nVR sAy that uR com spoiT, hoW wouLD i knOW.. we nvR caLL each othEr.. haHAz.. u guyS taLk to mE waN i wAS standinG aT uR tablE on monday, aT claSs, at tHE timE of recEss?? i thoUght u guyS nvR taLk to ME.. u wEre taLkinG aBt sOmethinG.. said hi, but no one heard.. thaN i feeL so stupid standinG there, smiliNg aLl thE waY than i taLk to lyna.. than whiLE taLkinG.. u guys left.. sO i went recEss wiT theM.. woW.. sucH a misuNderStandiNg situAtioN.. haHAZ.. u guYs don't knOW i was cryiNg?? omG.. hahAz.. othEr misundersTandinG.. hahAz.. don't knoW u guYS were dicuSsinG somethinG.. haHaz.. sORRy, yaH..

aNiwAY.. don't sAiD "without u[i] we r nothing, we r disabled.." u aLL stiLL cAn livE ur lifE wiTouT mE.. i knOW, u guyS can movE it.. if i caN movE it, moVE it.. i knoW u can movE it.. sO movE it.. haHaZ..[laMe siaK!] aNiwaY, u guYS stiLL haVe fun wiT or wiTouT me.. it'S stiLL tHE sAMe.. u guYS don't haVE to repeaT wAT u sAY.. coZ i aLWaYS the sLOW onE..[so truE] fOR aLL i knOW.. u wiLL enjoY ur timE in evEry outings.. sO haVE much fun as u can.. livE lifE to tHE fuLLesT.. hEY gaL, i not lesbiaN LEh.. sO dOn't keep sAyinG lub here n tHEre.. e feEling veri weirD onE.. bUt i knOw.. u carE, for mE.. i meaN everyonE.. thaNk yaH..

last but no lEASt, maS.. u left mE 3 voice mSg.. i juZ heard thAT msg oF urs on fridaY.. i fORgoT.. sorry yaH.. u aRh, how many timEs muz i sAy.. dOn't blaME ursElf for every problEm.. noT uR fault.. everythiNg haPPen fOr a reASOn.. sO stoP saying thaT.. nOt everY problEm is aLl ur fault onE, remeMber thaT.. u alwaYS sAY " aPe sAlaH aKu norma, aku tak buaT aPe2 kaN?" correcT riTE?? maybe aBit differEnt.. elLo gaL, wAKe up plZ.. dOn't blaME urselF in every singlE thiNg thaT is wronG!! i repeaT.. dOn't!! i knOW u heLp me aLot oF stuFf.. esPeciaLLy abt aN.. i reaLLy appReciate it.. no woRds caN descibE hoW haPpy i m wHEn u helP mE to get him back.. n i muZ sAy thank u a billioNs tiMEs.. u heLp mE oUt alOt.. n i vEri gratefuL for thaT.. u had bEen my frEn n it wiLL alwAyS wiLL.. remEmbEr thAT.. i hoPE ur problEMs wIt zaI wiLL work ouT.. don't kEEp running aWaY.. if u diD uR wroNgs aDmit iT.. if noT continUe running aWAy yah!!

in coNcLusIon.. itS mY faUlt.. dOn't feeL saD, guilty n othErs morE k.. wE r stiLL freN.. wE mAy not bE clOSe aNimorE.. buT onE thiNg fOR sure, wE r freNs.. sO continuE livinG uR lifE to tHE fuLLest.. enjoY liFe.. loVE tHE onE wHo lovEs u, befOR thaT persOn is goNE foR reaL.. saY thE thinG thaT u wAN befoR tHEre no tiME to sAY iT.. if not u regreT it foR liFE..

sMiLE yaH!! be haPPy!! thE enD..
7:17 PM


haHAZ.. came sKooL juZ oN tiME.. it wAS rainNinG.. saW aN ouT oF thE buS.. wAnteD tO sHeLter hIm.. cOZ i m usiNg e uMbreLLa.. bUt tO baD.. hE waLk to fAst so i lazy to catch uP.. haHAz.. sO lame..
pE leSsoN, diD noThinG.. cOZ it wAS raInniNg.. sO i sLept in claSs wiT ijah..
Pe ovEr n thAN breaK.. wHEn to cANteeN.. sAt dOwN wIt mY sEc 2 fREn.. liA, mas n jOE.. ijAh waS thEre tOo.. haHAz.. iZzit weiRd to c ME aT thE cantEEn.. i knoW, it haS bEen long siNcE i sitEd thEre.. buT u dOn't haVE to teLL thEM riTE?? sO kpO.. minD uR oWn businEss cAn.. aNiwAy, guess wHO i sAW.. zaidi.. waKAKa.. i waLk paSs him aLSo got.. hehE.. likE thAT i aLso haPpy.. wAT to dO.. i likE hiM.. i reaLLy admit tHAt.. kEep lookiNg aT hiM aT caNteEn.. wAT to dO.. hE iS thE onlY attraCtioN i cAN fiNd.. haHAz.. i thiNK i m in loVe.. hahAZ..
hMm.. later wAS mT claSs.. wEnt mLy claSs foR 1/2.. cOZ nEed to go art claSs.. teaChEr wAN to givE arT n levEl paPer.. diE liAO.. sO haRd thE topIc.. chEr sAid eaSy, whEre got!! haiZ.. comfiRm goT sLeePleSs niTE aGain..
neXt waS englisH cLASs.. got mY resuLt fOR preLimS.. haHAz.. i got 7 poiNts bUt to baD i faiL mY engliSh.. sO iT's mEaN thaT i goT 75% oF goiNg to iTe nexT yeaR.. haIZ.. teaChEr dO cAre hoR.. sAiD thiS n thaT.. especiaLLy abt engliSh.. haiz.. i wOndEr wiLL thiS be mY laSt yeaR oF skOOl?? hMm.. dOn't knOW lEh..
n hEre m i writIng thiS boriNg bloG.. haHAZ.. laME mE..
10:26 AM


haHA.. titLE niCe riTE??
aCtuaLLy i dO liKE u.. i dOn't knOW y.. i can't sTop sayiNg tHAt, i reaLLy likE u.. u haD entertaiN mY liFe, tOO maKE mE haPPy.. tHE smiLE oF uRs juZ melt mY heaRt.. thE innocEnt faCe u giVE maKe mE, wAS reaLLy cuTe.. tHE wAY u sHoW cOncErn to mE, iT diFferEnt fRom othErs.. hoW coulD i sAy thaT i nVR meT u.. n hoW coulD i sAy i nvR likE u..
haiZ.. to baD.. thiS r juZ mY faNtaSy.. wE r juZ fREn.. noThinG morE thaN tHAt.. hMM.. mET him n hiS fREn twiCe.. haHAz.. firSt wAs aT tHE aRt roOM.. caN't foRgEt his faCe.. so innOcent.. kEeP sayInG thaT he waiteD mE.. omG.. regrET nvR waIt.. haiZ.. i waS liKE kEep sayinG sOrry tO him so maNy tiME n hiS fREn tOO.. haiZ.. sOb2..
sEconD timE met him n hiS fREn agaIN.. outsiDe skOOl, sOme wHEre neaR thE 7-11 sHop tHEre.. agaiN.. saiD thE saME thiNG.. hE liKE got msG my fatHEr hP.. omG.. hE sO stupiD.. haHAz.. agaiN mE saY soRry.. haiZ.. can't sTop sayinG sorrY.. mY fauLT maH..
aniwAY.. hE iS moRE thaN a fRen.. waN to say i likE hiM.. yaH.. buT not lOvE.. i guESs.. likE him thE waY hE treatEd mE.. noT likE someonE.. overaLL, hE sOmeonE who i caN truN to n aSk hiM fOR helP.. hE aLwaYS tHEre to helP mE.. he sUch a gooD fREn..
9:27 AM


hMm.. todAY.. i likE runniNg awAY fROm mY fREn.. i can't sEe thEM.. i juZ caN't, iF i wEre to sEe tHEm i wiLL sTaRt cRyiNg.. no idEA y.. bUt aLL i knOW, i juZ cAN't fACe tHEm.. i sORrY.. u dOn't haVE to kEeP finding mE.. i juZ woNt cOME.. fORgEt abt mE.. dOn't lOOk fOR mE.. juZ regrEt mE aS sOmEonE unknoWn.. sOmeonE wHo nvR exisT in thiS woRLD.. yaH..
otHEr thing.. i m sO sOrrY.. i nvR waitED fOR u!! u coMe laTe.. sO sOrry.. tO afraiD to waiT coZ mY fRen wAS likE sOme aRd mE.. sO i muZ liKE gET oUt tHEm aSAP.. so sOrrY yaH.. n uR fREn!! dOn't mEAn to coME up mY claSs juZ fOR fUn.. sORrY agaiN.. i maKE iT up tOo u.. i wiLL dO wAt u sAY.. i meAN do u a faVouR yaH.. sORry aGaIN.. i knOW u haTeinG mE..
hEHe.. thaNkgooDnEss to mY techNicAL fREN!! caN saVe mE.. haHAZ.. taLk to thEm likE sO lonG.. neAr to tHE booksHoP aRea.. juZ to waiT fOR my fREn to go oFf firsT.. bUt got to kNow tHEy weRE stiLL thErE.. sO i likE taLkinG rubbisH wiT haikaL n faiZ.. hahAz.. aT leaSt goT taLk smTh.. taLk aBt tHEm, mY mUm, theY liFe, loVE n sO on.. ohh yaH thaT haikaL stiLL kEep disturbinG mE wiT faiz.. haHAZ.. he aTtach to fadilaH aLreadY sO stoP disTurbinG uS.. laSt lonG yaH.. haHAz.. aniwAY.. wEnT hm wiT thEm.. taLk nonsEnsE.. oMg, i likE vEri lonG timE nVR go oUt wiT thEm liaO.. aBt 3 yeaRS.. wOW.. sO lonG.. n gueSs wAt.. thEY stiLL remEmbEr tHE mEmoriES wiT sHaRe dUriNg sEc 1.. i fORgoT eVerythiNg.. omg, noRMA shoRt memorY.. laUgh aLot whEN i wiT thEM.. thEy aRe daRm fuNny i n evREy singlE thinG thEY Do.. haHAz..
aNiwAy wiTouT theiR heLp.. i guEss wouLD stiLL stuck iN sKooL.. thaNk yaH.. hahAZ.. aniwAY waN to gEt reaDy to go hospitaL agaIn.. c yaH..
8:51 AM


baSicaLly wriTinG thiS to my fREn.. Not juZ a noRmAL fRENs.. bUt to a fReN(s) whO i haD enjOy tHE mosT meMorabLE, haPpeninG, enjoyaBLE, entErtaiNinG n hiLarioUS dAY in mY liFe.. u guyS wEre part oF mY liFe.. n i treASure iT.. but noW, i don't knOW.. thiNgs chaNgEs beCoZ oF.. i don't knOW.. sEriousLy i haVe no idEA becOZ oF wAt..

sOmE timE i wondEr izzIt bEcOZ oF tHAt phonE cALLinG thiNgy.. or beCOZ of somethIng elSe.. whY noT i juzt teLL evErythiNg on wAT haD haPpen on tHAt daY k.. sO evEryoNE cAN gEt tHE maIn pic.. no miSundErstaNdinG caN.. thAT incLudE mE..

hEre goEs oN tHE 6 sep..

aFter sS paPer i wAS cALm riTE.. u c mE happy ritE?? i waS oHh k ritE?? abit insAnE ritE?? buT actuaLLy i wAS noT.. i wAS controlinG mysELF.. u guyS deciDEd to go sOme where riTE.. i nvR foLLow ritE.. i wEnt hM wiT ifAh n Qi..

reaCh hM.. i oN tHE cOm.. fi, mSn mE aSk y i nVR foLLow u guYs.. i aSk go wHErE.. hE rePly u guyS weRe at cP.. i thiNk.. i sAY dOn't knoW.. thAN i tuRn up tHE maXimUm voLumE oF mY com.. BlaSt my sTeReO.. lisTen to sOngs.. to relieF mYsELF.. beCoZ i wAS sO fRusTraTed oF mysElF.. on y tHE heLL i broKE doWn at tHE haLL.. on y thE heLL, i loSt aLL thE poiNt.. y mY miNd wEnt empTy.. waT haPpen to Me.. n sO on.. i waS sO noT mysElF whEn i entRE my rooM..

i wAS cryiNg.. shoutiNg mY lunGS oUt.. screaMinG to bReaK aWAy froM mY problEms.. taLkinG to mysELf liKE aN idiot fReaK.. hiddInG myselF in thiS room of minE.. tolD my parenTS n sibLinGs nOt tO distuRb mE.. tolD thEm if aNy bodY caLL, saY i wAS not at hm.. huRting mYselF.. liKE a insAne perSon.. runniNg towArds tHE waLL n hiT iT juZ to feeL thE paIn.. slAppinG myselF.. i don't know Wat was goinG on mY minD.. aLL i knOW wAt to huRt mYseLF n cRy everyThing ouT.. i knOW u guyS thiNk i m craZy.. buT thiS a coMMoN thiNg fOr mE dO to reliEf mYselF fRom aNy problEms i fACe..

wHEn i wAS cryiNg n sCreaMinG.. zairI mSg mE.. aSkinG wHEre iS mas.. nvR rePly but to caLL u guyS.. coZ sHE wiT u.. at leaSt i makE a effoRt to cALL u guyS n said thaT zai cari maS n nth elsE, eVEn thouGh i was cryinG on thE phoNE.. after thaT i hang uP.. n continuE cryinG n shouTinG.. thAN u guyS kEep calling mE.. abt 6 tiMEs using two difFrenT phoNE, diL n aN.. noT enouGH aSk otHEr fREn, ifAh to caLL.. bEcOZ iT wAS a privaTe nuM.. caLL twicE.. u knoW hoW irRitaTed i feLt.. i wAN sOme pEace.. n i cAn't have thaT.. tHE phonE kEep rinGinG onE after othEr..

aT laSt piCk up onE stupiD call.. n saiD thAt dOn't disTurEd mE animORe n sTop caLLinG mE.. n blA3.. i foRgOt.. i haVe no idEA who waS on thE next liNE.. wAT i knoW is that juZ leavE mE aLonE.. n thAN i haNg uP.. i knOW i wAS wRonG to hang uP.. tRy imagiNE uRsElF in mY positiOn.. hoW woulD u feeL.. pPL kEep disturbinG u, in a tiME wEre u wAn to lefT aLone.. huH??

felt sO baD thaT i shouTeD to thaT persOn n haNg uP thE phoNE.. deCidIEd to caLL baCk.. sAY soRry.. toLD tHE sAMe thinG agaIn.. zai msG.. tHAt aLL i knOW.. leaVe mE aLone.. dOn't disturEd mE n bla3.. dOn't knOW iF u guyS got hear waT i saId.. n tHAT waS iT.. tHAt thE eND.. no moRe phonE caLL ringinG in my head..

thaN i dOn't knOW, hoW coMe u guyS saId thaT i wAN to kiLL mysElf.. thaT wat ifAh sAys.. waN to kiLL myselF?? hUh?? diD i sAid thaT?? i nvR riTE.. diD u guyS heard wrOngLy?? toLD tHE whoLE thiNg to ifAH.. n shE say maybe it wAS aN misundErsTandinG?? sEriousLY, i dOn't knOW..

tHAt onE weeK oF holidAY.. i wAS lefT alonE.. thiNkinG tOo get ovEr wiT tHaT paPer!! [ i ovEr reaCting riTE, can't help it ] n aBt mY muM [ wHo goinG fOR a operatioN sOOn]]!! onLi mY goD sIS n my sPEciaL fRen haD heLP mE aLot durinG thaT so caLL dieinG daYS.. no foRgetiNg ifaH whO helP tOO.. thaNks yaH.. whEre wEre tHE resT oF u guyS?? i dOn't knOW.. sO i turN to tHEm.. maS whO haD not caLLinG mE foR weekS.. where is sHe?? i dOn't knoW.. maYbe sHE stiLL sicK, i guESs.. if u wERe reading gET weLL sOOn!! eaT meDicinE yaH.. sTAY stroNg.. smiLE aLWAys.. n hoW abt tHE othErs.. i don't knOW..

opEn skOOl.. firsT dAY, i cAN't taLk.. i cAn't giVE a smiLE to u gUYs.. i don't knOW.. u guYS been taLkinG abt thinGS thAt i dOn't even knoW.. hoW do u expecT mE to lisTen n reaCt on wAT u guyS beeN sAyinG.. caLLing each otHErs naME, whiCh i dOn't knOw.. aBt wAt stoRy, i dOn't knOW.. u guYS haD loTS oF fun whiLE i m noT.. so i go n taLk to mY otHEr fREn.. siNce u guyS wEre taLkinG tHE saMe thing.. sO wAT the biG deaL riTE.. yaH thEre no big deaL.. bUt tHE problEm is.. tHE timE wheN i nEed u guyS sO badlY.. to leaN onTo.. to taLk to.. to cRy wiT.. u guyS wAS not tHEre?? m i corrEct?? u guyS leave mE aLone.. iS thaT truE?? hoW do u expEct mE to feeL.. i thoUght tHEre someonE i cAN turn to.. especiaLLy firmaN+1.. buT tHEre no onE..

i haD to tuRn tO mY goD siS, adiK izaH.. in tHE worlD oF mSn.. teLLing
everyThinG.. mY emotioNs, mY liFe, mY frEns, my famiLy n sO on.. n yEt she wAS tHEre.. giVinG mE advisE not to enD mY liFe.. evEry niTe, witoUt faiL, sHe wiLL msg mE n taLk.. telliNg mE agaIn n agaIn.. to take care oF mysElf.. be sTroNg n sO on.. n thaN a otHEr freN wHo is laME yEt tryinG to chEer mE uP.. n yEt tHAt persOn haD heLp mE to feeL haPpY n liVE mY lifE to tHE worlD oF eNtErTainmEnt.. wiT tHE laMe joKes that persOn gaVE.. wHo had mAke mE a smiLE on my faCe.. n u guYs?? i dOn't knOW.. i nVr c ani oF u onliNE.. nvR receiVe aNy mSg, phonE caLL.. bUt juZ plaiN nTh..

maYbE thaT y i nvR taLk to u guyS.. maYbe it's mY faulT.. thaT i nvR aPproaCh u.. maYbE i m riTE, it'S aLL mY faulT.. becOZ oF tHat.. u guyS can blaME mE anything u waN.. u caN taLk aNythinG u wAN aBt mE.. gooD oR baD.. it's oHh k.. i m fiNE wit iT..

n todAy.. i cRy in clASs.. during aSsembly perioRd.. u guyS knoW thaT.. i waLk oUt thE claSs wit teaRS flowing dOWn.. weNt to tHE toilEt.. n thE persOn wHO caME wAS noT u guyS.. but Qi.. m i correCt?? firSt thinG on mY minD, where wEre u guyS?? u nvR caME doWn.. i thouGHt thaT wAS it.. u guyS nvR cAre.. qi waS thE oNE whO taLk tO mE.. encOuraGe mE.. sHE do caRe.. wEnt up tO clASs feElinG a biT bettEr.. weNt to my tablE n sAT.. n thaN caMe fida.. whO taLk to mE aSking y.. tolD hEr abt mY mUm.. fiDA aSk diL n fitria to coME.. n tHEy did.. i wondEr, iF fida nvR caMe up tO mE.. wouLD thEY coME?? i wondEr.. hMM.. a coNversAtioN waS tHAn heLD talkiNg iF i wEre fiNe, hoW my mum n sO on.. n thaN mY minD sEt chaNge.. that i judgE thEm wronGLy.. thEy dO caRe.. tHEy thaN wEnt oFf talkinG aBt otherS stuFf n left mE aLone..

physiCs claSs haD starTEd n thaN endEd.. n nExt lesSon wAS sociaL studIEs.. chEr waS absEnt.. n everyonE caN do their oWn thinG sO i weNt to sLeep.. timE paSs.. n sOmeonE wokE mE uP.. n it wAS lyNa, iF sHE nvr wokE mE i woulD continuE sleepiNg.. firsT thing i sAW.. u guyS wAs not thEre.. i guEss thEy left fOR recEsS.. n than my mind sEt chaNge agaiN.. askinG thaT tHE conversAtion wE helD juZ noW wAS juZ an act?? i dOn't knoW.. u guyS nvR wokE mE up.. hMm.. i have no commeNts aBt thaT..

recEss endEd.. maTh lesSon sTart n thAn endEd.. engliSh timE, chEr wAS absEnt.. n agaIn we weRe aLlow to do our stuff.. sincE i cAn't continuE sleePinG, i decidEd to wriTE sMth in mY sPO n lisTen to soNg usiNg mY hP.. n caMe lyNa aNd iDah taLkinG to mE.. aT leasT there wAS someonE i coulD taLk to.. tHEy accompany mE.. sAt besiDe mE.. jokinG arD.. n thAN i noticE sMth.. vani sAt we fidA, diL n fi.. so i guEss.. sHE wouLD taLk aBt mE.. hMm.. i goT no commeNtS aBt that.. tHEre nTh i couLD saY.. buT juZ to kEep in silEnts.. helplEssly..

i doN't knOW wAt goinG oN.. so i thiNk.. i noT apart oF tHEm.. i guEss sO.. thaT it.. tHE enD oF fREnshiP wiT tHEm.. i guEss.. sIncE wE cAn't communicATe.. cAN't evEn smiLE.. i thinK wE goinG twO sEprate wayS.. hMmm.. ntH could bE dOne i guESS..

in thE worlD oF mY.. weRE siLentS aPpeaR at aLL timE.. unsPokEn i woulD aLwaYS bE.. feeliNg helplEssLy n depreSSed.. i woUld liKE to sAy thaT.. thaNkz fOR aLL tHE thiNgs thaT u guYS doNe to mE.. in a gooD waYS i meaN.. thanZ foR singlE thinGs u diD.. nvR woulD i regreT thE wondErfuL momenTS i haD.. iT wiLL aLWayS bE kePt sOme wHEre in mY heARt.. dEep dOWn insidE.. tHEre aLWayS a naME caLL firmaN+1..

guEss tHAT iS tHE enD oF my entRy.. dOn't feeL sAD reaDiNg iT.. iT wAS mY fault.. remEmbEr thaT.. taKe cARe.. hMm.. byEz..
10:03 AM


yOH.. i iN skOOl.. dOing thiS stupiD entRy.. got nTh to dO.. sO writE stupiD stuFf lOl..aniwAy juZ finisH doinG tHE nationaL edUcaTioN quIz.. fun aRh.. but thaN i dOn't knoW tHE aNs siaK.. haHAZ.. vEri niCe to plaY.. seriouS!! i knoW liKE a smaLL kiD.. but to baD tecHEaR aSk to Do.. haHAz.. lOl.. recEss tiME i wAs liKE findIng him.. buT thaN i onli saW hiS fREn.. u knOW mY sEc 2 fREn, i liKE kEep sayiNg thaT, hE noT heRe bUt hiS fREn goT.. than thAt lia aSk dEr.. wah.. sO maLu.. i liKE plaY2 wit HEr to shuT hEr mouTh.. buT thaN ritE.. maS gO n aSk hIm.. shit!! tHAn dEr saiD He n hiS frEn aT claSs.. aLA.. hE liKE dOn't WAN to fReN wiT mE lEh.. sO sAd!! sOb2.. thaN dEr aSK mE.. hoW cOme i keEp fiNdiNg HiM?? than mY studiP reactioN coME iN.. "aLA.. talK to him.. liKE fun mAh.. yaH fUn.." wit mY innoCent smiLE.. omG.. i stiLL caN anS hiS quesTion.. sTupiD siAk noRma.. noRMa dIe liaO.. hiS fRen fRom dOn't knOE, noW knOW thaT i likE him.. aiyOH.. hMm.. sOb2..
1:46 PM


i m sO haPPy!!
wAN to knoW y??
beCoz nexT weeK i m going oUt wiT soMEonE..
speciaL somEonE..
yEAh!!
hE aSk mE tO go ouT..
woW.. i sO haPpY!!
cAn't waiT untiL next wEekENd..
hoPe iT wiLL turN up wELL..
i cAn't waiT liaO..
hahA..
1:50 PM


oHh k lAh.. writIng thIS entRy to lEt u guyS knoW thAT i won'T resT in pEaCE k.. sO don't worrY to muCh.. i wOn't kiLL mysElF.. thAt wAt my fRen thiNk.. haha.. wAt nonSEnSe.. iF i cAN i waN to but sOmeoNE saiD thiS..
"da earth wont accept ur body"
"den u wont rest in peace"
"u will b loitering around.."
woW.. sHE WAs not jokiNg whEn sHE sAid thaT.. sO, i guESs, i baRE wiT iT.. haiZ..

aNiwAy theRe thiS perSon wHo chEEr mE uP.. biT bY biT.. i start to liKE hiS nonsEnse stufF.. sOmetimE iT dOEs maKe sEnSE.. sOmetimE it dOEs noT.. haHA.. i knOW hiS secrEts.. wan tO knOW.. hE iS sUpErmAn.. hAHa.. laME riTE.. n hE knOW minE.. whiCh iS i M insAnE pErSOn.. too laMe ritE.. buT who cAres.. at leaSt hE maKe mE haPPy.. wHEn i wAs sO cALL diEinG.. haHA.. aNiwAy.. sTaRt to likE hiM.. aS a sPeciAL fREn.. i hoPE sO.. haHA.. who knoWs..

aNiWAY.. i thiNk i gEt ovEr wiT mY paSs.. aftER WAt tHE pErSon sAid.. or izziT a hint.. i guEss hE wAn mE tO movE on.. yESh arh.. biT by biT i m moVinG oN.. hopE no moRe baD memoRy i guEss.. bEinG fRENz is mucH bEtTEr.. riTE?? mY fREn..
5:55 AM


hMm.. wAt should i sAy aBt mY sociaL studiEs paper??
i dOn't knOW m i haPpy wiT mY anS aNot oR shOuLd i screAM mY lunGS ouT?? hMm.. i dOn't knOW.. i tRY to lOok aS iF i m haPPy aS thE paPer wAs oHh k..
i wAS enjoYing mySeLF thAt it'S ohh k.. noThing haPpens.. it'S oVEr.. aCtinG stupiD.. tRyinG to cOmfoRt mY frEN not to cRy n mE too.. beCoz wE, threE, thoUGht wE cAn do that paPer.. bEcoz wE spent thE whoLE morniNg aT humAnitieS hoMe rooM stuDy sS.. but NO!! wE cAn't do iT..

eSpeciaLLy mE!! i cAn't!! i thoUght i cAN do iT aT fiRst..
bUt no!! wheN i lOok aT thE struCturEd eSsAy quEstion, i sunddenly forGet aLL my maIn poiNt.. n mY suppOrtinG poinT.. n i miX uP aLL thE poiNt..
dOn't evEn knOW whiCh poiNt iS for whiCh chaptEr..
iS thaT gooD?? i waS SO fReaK oUt!! i knoW i was dEaD!!
fRom thaT momEnt.. i haD sTartEd wriTing rubbiSh.. fOR boTh sOuRCe baSE n sTruCTurE quEsTiOn..

i knoW none oF my aNs iS correCt.. sO i giVE up..
lEt sAy i diD my paPer, complEte it.. buT i juZ wRotE foUr sEntEncE.. m i smart??
yesH, noRmA.. u r sO dArm smArt.. in tHE opposite wAy!! thAnk u, thaNk u!!
i woNdEr, m i boRn to bE sTupiD?? hMm.. maYbE yeSh..

u wAN to knoW sMth....
i wAn to screAm oUt loUd.. listeniNg to pUnk n roCk musIc riTE noW.. to reliEf my angER!! wHere tHE whOlE faMaiLy coulD lisTen to my sinGinG..
no.. lisTen tO mY shouTing n scReaming!! cryiNg in thiS room oF minE.. sLaPpinG my fACe.. beaTing myseLF up.. whiCh i haD aLready dOne.. n i stiLL continuE wiT iT untiL.. don't knOW whEn..

u knoW y, i m So fEd uP??
i studY Ss fOR 4 dAy, contiNuoEs.. fRoM tHE afternOon untiL midnigHt..
remEmbErinG evEry maiN poiNt.. writIng aLL tHE infoRmatioN i gEt oUt mY heAd.. doinG thE sS paPer thaT teacher givE.. drink loTs oF coFfee to wAke mE uP n sTaYiNg in thiS rooM oF miNE fOR houRS.. n aT laST tHE biG dAy cAMe n i foRgEt eVErythiNg!! dO u knoW hoW stupiD i feLt?? no onE knoWs.. wHo cAreS riTE.. don't boTher.. juZ leaVE mE aLonE.. aLonE wHEre i cAN bE.. in a plaCe wHEre no onE cAn fiND mE.. wHEre i cAN rest in peaCe... wiT bloOD..
8:54 AM


maLaY paPer!! oMg.. i wAs sO not oK aT tHe haLL.. i dOn't kNoW wAt i m thiNkiNg.. i toOk sO muCh tiME to choosE a QUestion.. thaT y i nVr had nO tiME to chEck mY spELLing fOr mY cOmpo.. i m sO deAd.. i cAn bEt thaT mY LanGuaGe iS so baD.. i cAn comfiRm thaT tHEre iS loTs n lOts of graMMar misTakes.. fuLl wit rED ink i guEss.. OmG..
" tEAchEr, i m sO sOrry thaT i nVr chEcK my paPer.. i knOW i lEt u dOwn.. i m sO sOrry.. it wAS mY misTakes.. i fEeL sO baD riTE noW.. I M sO baDly, tRuLy, CompLeteLy, hOnEStlY N TrUethfuLLy sorrY AbT It.."
besidE thaT i cAN comfirm thaT my paPer 2 also got loTs oF misTakes.. oMg.. i juZ hopiNg i cAN jUZ paSs thaT paPer.. plZ..
4:20 PM



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6:13 PM


shouLD i juZ adMiT tHAt i miSs u..
or sHouLD i noT??
sHoULD i aDmiT thaT i liKE u moRe thaN a fRen..
oR shouLD i noT??
sHouLd i admiT thaT i lovE u sTiLL..
oR sHouLD i noT??
sHouLD i aDmiT thaN u r mORe thaN a fren..
oR sHouLD i noT??
shOulD i aDmiT thaT i nEed u in mY liFe..
oR sHouLD i noT??
sHouLD i aDmiT thaT i m sTupiD..
oR shouLD i noT??
6:24 PM



aNothEr phoTo oF mediA.. mS kaN juZ uploaD iT.. buT stiLL noT complEte lOl..
2:10 PM


i nVR go skooL.. ovErsLePT.. n laZy too.. hahA.. suppoSe to sIgn mEdiA clUb cArd foR mS kAN.. buT nVr tuRn uP.. haHA.. sOrry lOl..

thaN froM WAt i hEaRd fRom faRhaN lah.. thaT siCkinG guY who aSk mE to waIt.. for sO lonG.. sTupiD u lOl.. haD enjoY tHEmsELf todAY.. haHA.. thEy, laSt miN plaN sMth fOr mS chECK.. aCtuaLLy tHEre nVR plan anythInG aT aLL lOl.. bEfOR tHAT sHE wAs upsEt cOz tHE cLAss diD nth spEciaL foR hEr.. sO sHe wEnt oFf.. than tHE claSs fElT guilTy.. sO thE cLAss bouGhT cAke fOR hEr, usiNg tHE cLAss fund.. wHEn sHE cAme baCk to tHE cLAss (baHAvani n rima cALL hEr to coME baCk), tHE cLAss waS empTy.. thEy wEre hiDdinG aT tHE sTaiRcASe.. n than run in tO givE hEr a surpriSe lOl.. n tHE cAke waS aT thE hpO tablE.. haHA.. bEsIde tHAt, tHEy haD aCtuaLLy aRraNge tHE chaiRs n taBlE n fORm tHE woRd "4a1" n lovE u.. sMth likE thaT laH.. n thEy sAng sOng.. e barnEy sOng, i lovE u.. haHA.. so weiRd.. yEt sO toucH.. haHA.. thEy aLSo tooK claSs phoTo.. onLi haLf tHE cLAss cAMe.. haHA.. thaT'S aLL..

aS foR tHE sS clASs.. iT onLi tooK aBt 15 or sO.. omG.. but stiLL got sS hmWk lAh.. iF knoW i ShoulD go to sKoOl.. mnVR minD lOl.. sTupiD maH.. regRet.. haiz..


thE cLASs phoTo tHEy tOok.. wiT ms cHeck..

tHE cLAss phoTo tHEy took.. wiT mr cHua..

"4A1".. cAN u sEe it??

hEaRt sHaPe.. sO touCh..
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